Boredom Madness

A'Div Draw

2012-02-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

Ouch!! Lost my mood to study because I fount out the daunting task awaiting me!! I received an sms about the draw for this year A'Division!! Sadly, the group we have been drawn in is tough. Why? We are group together with RJC, ACJC, MI, TPJC, DHS!!

1. Raffles Junior College

Why do we have to be drawn with a DSA school!! They soccer players surely have to be stronger than us!! They DSAed into that school?? Ok, some of you think RJC is a nerd school. Perhaps they are, but they are does people who DSA and get expelled after 2 years of playing soccer for them in A'Div?! (Or thats what I heard..) They were last year 4th, rather strong school and likely to finish top of the group!! :/

2. Anglo-Chinese Junior College

What!!?? Another DSA school!! Save me man!! Usually ACJC is pretty strong but just not strong enough to be in the top 4. Usulayy they are 5th, so they are pretty strong are likely to finish runner-up in the group and also be the main threat to RJC.

3. Millennia Institute

LOL!! What luck man!! We just tio MI. I believe that all of you know that MI is like a JC but it is 3 years. Hence the team they can fill will be 19 years old, or J3. Which means that they are trained together as a team for one more year than normal JC which would mean that their teamwork and everything should be better than us. And MI and JJC are usually so called a derby since we are so close to each other.. Going to our main rivals too, Probably competing with these 3 schools mentioned, for that 2 exclusive spots!

4. Tampiness Junior College

I don't really know much about them, but I don't expect them to be strong. Hopefully, they are whipping boys :/

5. Duman High School

They ain't a very strong team, but we need to win big against them too!! We have played against them recently winning 2-0, it was the match when I did not listen to Doctor's instruction and played a bit in the match.. :/ Hopefully, I can make a difference.. :/

Well, overall, I hope that we can progress. I have seen the other groups, we are in the toughest group. The group of death. Having trained so hard, I really hope that we progress. So Right now, I am spamming myself with PT to improve myself. So that perhaps a reason why I am not very free these days. I need to get back my fitness!! :/

6 weeks over..

2012-02-05T21:35:00.001+08:00

The lifestyle of an Athlete and student.. Its tiring, its draining and its deadly!!

Well, this is year 6 of my hectic lifestyle.. had a good 6 weeks of break and its time I swim against the tide for my life again.

Right now, I have yet to enter back into that lifestyle. But actually, I already have, only that its not so physical draining yet because I have not been playing soccer a lot.. Just helping out here and there is not as tiring as soccer, running, sprinting, and experiencing a training that literally sucks the life and energy out of you... :/

But the thought of entering back into it is very disturbing and turns me off..

I know I will suffer, I know I will be left trying to keep my head above the water and I hope I do not drown.

But lets not hide the fact that I really want to go back and play soccer!! I really want too! I miss it so much. I hate being sidelined, but I actually hate my hectic and draining lifestyle more. All I have been able to do is just look on from the sideline or the stand as my team plays matches or train....

It has been a very lonely 6 weeks. I remember Steven Gerrard talking about how torturing it was to be sidelined for 6 months, and I do agree and now that my time on the sideline is almost finished (I have not fully recovered actually, but I don't have time..), I want to get back into action. I want to play, but I know the opportunity cost it holds.

I have lived like this for some many years. I have experienced those days when you just want to run away from reality, and run away from everything and just relax. And those days, when you are so exhausted that you become so moody, so cranky and you can't move at all.

Lets admit, there is no running away from it. I think I was meant to suffer sia, nah, just joking. But I had a nice 6 weeks of, though it was really lonely because being in the gym alone doing weighs is really boring, rest and its time to return to my hectic lifestyle.

There is really no point in listing down my sufferings because everyone has them, only difference is some people have them worse... I must endure, and I will survive!! I hope to mark my return to action with a bang too!! ^^

Alarm clock!!

2012-02-01T12:49:00.001+08:00

I NEED A ALARM CLOCK!!! Totally, after today, I really need one.

Well, school starts at 7.40am everyday. Guess what time I woke up today??!!!

7.22am!!!!!!!!!

Eeks!! I believe that my face was totally priceless when I saw the time I woke up!! My school is not just down below my estate, nor is it next door...It is 2.2km away!! I had also missed the bus!! And the next bus will take 15 mins to arrive!! I hate the waiting time for 185, honestly!!

Hm.. So lets go through the thought process??

I have 18 minutes to reach school. I am on my bed, and what do you think I would do??

I wanted to just go and sleep!! But when I saw the time! My priceless face and my shocked body jolted me out of my bed!! "siao ah! 18 mins left leh! Havent change, just pon sch lah" It was pretty enticing and tempting to do it, but thankfully, I did not.. I rushed to change and attempt to reach school before 7.40am!!

Eeks!!!!! When I saw what time it was when I left my house.. 7.29am, I thought, it was a gone case...

Wait for the bus? No, sure late!! Take cab? Maybe, but it will cost a bomb! So what did I do? I ran!!! My fitness has dropped badly, my knee not fully recovered, I accidentally sprained my ankle running on the way there. I thought it was over, but I just continues to run! Amazingly, I reached school in time. I was hurting, in pain and sweating away. But I made it in the nick of time. Thank God!! Phew!!

Its pretty cool how I woke up at 7.22am and not 7.30am or 9am. Giving me exactly the sufficient time to run to school and still make it in time.. I am really thankful for that!! No blemish on punctuality yet!! ^^

God puts trials in our way, and will see how much we want it (or Him) And will be fight on and press on towards our goal? Life does not get any easier, but are you strong enough to push on

I TOTALLY NEED A ALARM CLOCK!! >.<

Collage USS

2012-01-31T23:54:00.001+08:00

Hi peeps, could concentrate on homework, so I decided to do up a collage on my trip to USS... Was browsing through pictures lah. Found them!! So reviews on the collage? Haha!! :D

Here is the blod post link if you forgot about the post!! Pretty cool post, and it will explain to you the background of the collage yea ;)

http://boredomoutput.blogspot.com/2011/11/time-at-rws-uss.html

The Tide is turning..

2012-01-29T00:18:00.004+08:00

Hehe!! Opted for a imaginary story telling session now!! Wee....

And what better way than to get a continuation of the part 1 between the two kingdoms??

Haha!!

Well, remember about how the weaker nation was always on the back-foot? And how he longs for it to end soon...

So want to know Part 2? Are u up for it?? Haha!!

Well, I won't say the battle has ended, but for the past few months, the kings has constantly been going out into the battlefield and has been watching the battle daily... And guess what he saw? The most amazing thing! He saw an opportunity! And OPPORTUNITY!!

He saw that there was chance he could improve his chances of victory if he managed to grab this opportunity and make the best use of it!! But it wasn't going to be easy, it would take something from him. It would require a sacrifice..It would need him to go in person and he needed to take time of his schedule... But after weighting both the pros and cons, he decided to take that risk. Had he not managed it well, and it back-fired against him. The war would as good as become a lost cause (not that it had not already seemed like it..)

It wasn't easy, but when an opportunity comes your way, you should take it into your stride. I dont want to contradict the simply your life teaching but you need to grab that opportunity with two hands when it arrives. Grab only the opportunity that we help you in your cause that you are fighting in life. Don't take every thing, just the necessary yea ;)

Okok, back to the story.. What was the outcome??

Thank goodness he did take that risk!! ;) He might not been able to fully maximize the opportunity but at least he has managed to improve the chances of victory of his side. Having taken that step of faith, that step out of his comfort zone, and trying to adapt was tough. It was never easy, but he did his best. And that is good enough for now...

So now, he finds himself in a new situation. For once, he has a really chance of winning, and in a way, this might work against him. Now that the battle is there to be won, he should go for the victory!! So he is in a new situation a good one, but he needs to adapt again, but will he be able to do it? Will he be able to maneuver his men to victory. Lets hope he knows how because the attack will not lessen!! and the Fight will not cease until the clear victor emerges....

Vivo

2012-01-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hi, just one short and proper post..

Today, I went with my family to Vivo!! Wee.. And we ate at Carnivore!! Shiok!! So much meat until I was bloated, doubt I can even eat breakfast and lunch tomorrow! Haha!!

Well, then we decided to talk a stroll.. And that was when all the connection trigger returned.. Sorry lah, still in deep mode.. :/

Haha!! First was something super shameless that happened, haizz.. Dont want to say, it was super epic. After that, confirm no face see people :( Haha!! I was like serious contemplating face-palming ! Haha!! But I did not!! :D

Well, then I realize that today was the 24 Jan, and I after eating dinner when we went strolling. It felt like 2011 all of a sudden. It was like as I was walking, it was inception into the past. Instead of spending time with my family, it felt like I was spending time with Pearl. Well, simply because we celebrate her birthday on this exact day around the same time and at the exact same place.. Inception much!! Well, rather cool mind-blowing stuff if you ask me... It took the fireworks display to wake me up, and also the not so starry night sky to make me come to my senses that its not 2011 anymore.

Its no more, "I going Serve tomorrow" but its "I got school tomorrw, with huge workload and tests to study for :( "

Haiz, how time passes don't you think.. :( One year has actually passed, and I did not really knew what hit me. But either way, my stomach is satisfied ;) Weeee!! happy!!

Haha!! Proper post leh ;) Hehe!!

The Promise

2012-01-24T18:04:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, my brain has currently been flooded with my thoughts.. In a way, its good because I needed it to think for D.I's Fantastic Four!! but now that I have 'so called" done my part, the thoughts won't disappear!!

Well, what are the thoughts about? A promise...

I am not sure how people go into deep thought mode. For me, I must have heard an emo song then the train of thoughts will start flowing. Like you recall your past, then its like a flashback that happens to rapidly that it like so many things are flooding you.. So I really require to get it off my chest, perhaps saying it out hear could help me because I don't want to be haunted my them when I finally return to the torrid fast paced lifestyle I used to have in 2 weeks time.

On friday, during CNY celebration for school, there was this performance by one of your students and he was singing us a few students. I would say his singing is pretty zai lah, but it was the song that he sang that made me look up for the first time in the WHOLE 3 hour concert (yes, I was 9gaging the whole concert away until then..) Guess what he sang??

This song!!

Well, you might be like, whats so bad about this song. Hm.. Its still chinese right...!! I will give the death stare yo!! haha!! Nah, the reason why I would say what the picture below shows is because this song reminded me of my past.. Yes, I have a past and a little secret, that only perhaps 3 people out of 6-7 billion people on this Earth ever know! If you one of those 3, be happy, you are special! ;) If you are not, not fear, you aint the only one! Haha!! As he was singing, you got no escape, so I had entered the deep thought mode. And I am like:

Haha!! Just joking... I failed to divert those thought to something proper and hence it went back into that very moment in my past. Well, the movie reminded me of that little promise, or it reminded me why I choose make that promise. Won't tell u the promise :P but after I get this off my chest, you might figure a bit of the events that happen back then..

Let me just rant, you can choose not to read it too ;) I will type it in a way to confuse you, and mislead you so be careful with what you read, it could lead you astray! Wakaka!! Ok, I will rant now..

"I am reaching the end of it all, hearing that song and getting reminded that my contract is expiring in 9's time. And now that i feel like I am no more boy, and more of a guy all of a sudden. I have realize my taste in clothes, my style has all changed. Even my taste buds changed, I dont prefer to drink gassy drinks like coke no more. Instead, going to root beer, milk coffee or milk tea!! OMG!! I seem like I don't look like I grew up with my time spent mostly under the void decks and playing soccer. Ok the soccer maybe yes, but void deck, maybe not. Or that just my personal opinion.

I just dislike growing up. Being that little boy enabled me to just focus on fun, and be that boy on an adventure, and only be a man (during soccer matches) on a mission (totally focus on winning the match) when needed to be. But what happens when guys grow up, they start to ......

Ok, I will reveal something (not trolling for this paragraph onli ;P).. I like to foresee and predict things that will happen. In a way play God, if you put it in layman's terms. I tend to predict if the ball will go out, if this attack during a soccer match will lead to a goal, if this girl and guy will get together or if this nerd will get trip himself up. Ok, being evil there :/ Haha.. Ya, just predict.. Though, I keep them to myself, I tend to predict.Coz if I say, it might not be pleasant.. So I have predict something myself. I can be wrong at times, so hopefully I am this time round.

If I have really grown up at not just that I am in dove mode and slacking and not doing all the childish crazy stuff, this few months are going to be hard. Especially when there is still 9's time. I won't break my promises. I try my hardest, or actually I made it a priority to keep them.. Pinky promises = will not break, 100% therefore pinky promises to me are like the highest level. Sorry lah, I still live in children land ok ;P So if (touch wood) somehow ....... then I will have a torrid time for 9's time!

*well, I can't bear to continue, I will just leave this hanging then....* Sry :( Haha!! I am just hoping it will not happen..

So to make it up, here's something random or not so random?

I am a blur sotong at love affairs! Totally! I will never be able to tell if a girl like me, seriously, I am just like that main character who is as stupid as me and blind as me to not realize that this girl liked him (I was watching some movie lah, find myself similar to the guy. Wish I could hi-five him! Hehe!!). Oh well, as for me, I doubt I will have. I am a very high peacock for a reason, you know. But I will totally need someone to blatantly spell it out. Haha!! Just like him!! Fail TTM UCMA!!

P.S I think some of u can guess everything and understand everything I just wrote.. I aint a good actor. And thankful for that!!

Growing Up

2012-01-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps, this is a pretty random post. Ok, maybe not..

Well, I just feel like I have grown up right now. Going around SG visiting relatives felt so weird. I always tio whack with a few questions.

Just as:

"When you finish studying??"
My reply: 'this year. Next year need go army le.."
(then the talk begins.. Its either about me soon no hair, wah so fast grow up le. or .. you know.. LOL..)

or

"How's your soccer?"
When I hear that, it probably is not looking good. You know why? Because my reply is, "ok lah, now currently injured. SO I can't play soccer for 6 weeks."
(Then they will tell me, play soccer no future one lah. Aiyo, we in SG not England lah. You will suffer when you reach 30s, here pain, there pain... Quit soccer lah, get injured for what..)

or

This one is epic, "do u want to drink(wine)?? " Then I will reply, but I am only 17!! Not of age leh!! Trololol!! And yes, I do not drink.. :P I am a good boy! LOL.. They could even ask me, "When u getting your driving license?" I will give them that mind-blown face!! It seems like I look older than 17 sia! People asking me if I 18 le ah, then I, "huh? haven't lah" Super fail sia, I feel like facepalming sia!!

HAha!! But I should be thankful, because despite them thinking I am older than my age, they never ask me if I got girlfriend. Super duper safe.. Phew, if not I would have been put in a awkward moment....Haha!!

Ok, lets get serious to why I feel like I am old..

Right now, I am still trying to understand if I have actually grown up!! Because I always thought I will forever be that playful trolling adorable and cute little boy! haha!! So, I am trying to find an excuse or a reason or a few reasons..

Seeing your little nephews and all mad me feel like I have grown up so much... I don't drop to their level no more. No more jumping around and being so talkative. Maybe I because I am tired, but I doubt it.. For once, I was sitting at the table and talking with the adults! So weird ttm!! Though, I would drift out into outer space because they all speaking in either dialect or chinese, all foreign language lah, but still, I don't play with the younger kids no more!! >.< And today, I dressed almost exactly like my dad sia!! OMG!! GG!! I feel old! I feel like I have just attended a children camp and am feeling so old!! Haizz..

Maybe, its a transition period from me being a boy to me being a guy, then next year, from me being a guy to a man?? Idk?! :/ I am a bit too lazy to go into the deep stuff. I need my brain to think of the deep stuff for D.I bday lah! Haha!!

P.S, probably not well written or well epress. Sry. I am a lazy boy!! :P Hehe!!

CNY

2012-01-20T13:31:00.001+08:00

Hi peeps! Was tempted to write a long imaginary story but I am feeling to lazy. So I just converted this into a CNY post yea :)

Hahaha!! Gong Xi Fa Cai! Honestly, I don't even know what that means. :/ Oh well.. We all know that CNY is just round the corner. But unlike every year. This year, I have not gone shopping for my CNY clothes!! GG ttm!! Aiyoyo!! Lazy lah!! So this year, must reuse clothes!! Cheapo ttm!! Ohno :O

So mayebe this CNY will be different? Ok, maybe not. I will still attempt to not eat the snacks. But I think when I see Pineapple tarts, One will fall into temptation and grow FAT!! Noooo!! >.< Haha!! Nothing really deep today, just want to practice my keyboard for tomorrow!! Wee, PE band leading for the first time this year!! :O Its going to be very rare to see PE band up on stage together this year. Because of Army, and attachment and major exams.. Haizz.. Oh well, all of us are busy men.

Going to sign off here, liaoz... Need think for D.I bday too!! :O Haha!! Can;t wait for the ang bao though!! Hehe!! :D

New Year Resolution

2012-01-15T15:03:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!! I feel enlighten all of a sudden!!

Well, like I have said before. I have not thought of new year resolutions, but after today. I perhaps have them now..

Well, unlike normal new year resolutions that last for a year. My resolutions are goals that will take a few years or a lifetime to complete...

For example, my new year resolution for Rhema is not really a new year. I has been the same since 2009, which is to see each and every single boy grow deeper in God spiritually and see us grow as a cell group. It has not change since 2009 and I won't be changing it in 2012! So as you can see, its not a 1 year thing. This resolution might take 1 years, 20 years or a lifetime but hey, this is what I call a proper new year resolution. Not like some, I want do well for A's resolution -.- (Ok, actually, I also want do well for A's but at the end of the day, that cert is a valuable as my Chinese Language. Totally useless!!)

Hence, my resolutions are to stick to the old ones!! Haha!! And what are they?? Perhaps some needed editing so I have done so..

For Rhema, I want to see every boy grow to love God, to grow deeper in the knowledge of God, and to see the cell multiply. Disclaimer, I won't be able to do this via my own strength. But throught God, this is possible!!

For Encounter Service Team (EST), I want to keyboard skills but here comes the additions. Here is the goal. I want to play music from the keyboard that is able to move the hearts of people. Not just nice meaningless melodies, but music that can move hearts.. Well, moving hearts, is something only God can do so, again, I need him in this department. So its no more just wanting to improve aimlessly.. :D

For Soccer, its the same as last year. Just to enjoy playing the game. This will be my last year playing for JJC, and might be the last time I touch the ball competitively, thus, I just want to give my all and have fun.. :D

As for my individual self, I do have many goals, many resolutions. Some I can share, and some I won't on this blog....

I want to feel God, I want a fresh touch from God, to be transformed. I want to be more patient (after what happen last year, I still do blame myself at times for it hence I want to change!!), I want to be more people orientated, not task orientated.. And well, a lot more that I will not share...

So yupyup, that most of them, and may God help me!!.. This are not one off goals, there will could take years.. :/

JJ open House

2012-01-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

Today, JJC had their open house!! Hehe!! But this post will not be the open house because it was super super boring.. I was actually reading my notes aka studying for tmr's biology test!! >.< haha!! But this post will be about the soccer match of JJC vs Greenridge Sec

Well, I did not sit and watch the whole match but I did watch them and well, I will admit it, the standard was not up to standard..

And just watching it, I felt too helpless, so frustrated because Greenridge players were diving and I could not do anything about it..

I dont know why I felt like that. Usually, I wont feel anything because I am still finding back my love to run on the pitch with the ball and trying to rekindle my love for soccer. Perhaps it was because there was a lot of fans watching this match as it was the Open house. I really don't know..

Perhaps, what I desire is to be watch at when I play soccer. I have been thinking about it and the most satisfying thing a footballer can get is that when a person watches him play, and then says he is good. That is perhaps the most rewarding thing someone can receive.

Well, so perhaps that has been that missing factor all those while. That has been what I was wanting all along?? Maybe?? But it could also then perhaps be the fact that some of my friends do want me get injured, and I am been withholding myself from playing the game to my full capabilities and try to stop myself from snaking my way pass defenders so that might mean that I don't get that sense of thrill doing such stuff and perhaps it resulted in me not loving the game I play.. :/

I really don't know why, I don't know what cause me to stop loving soccer but after watching the match in the stands. Hearing them cheer on the team, I kept telling myself that it should be me there absorbing those cheers!! Haizz... I do miss playing in front of crowds. I really do. It was great playing in the National Final but that was the highlight of perhaps my 'mini' career.

And I that feeling of being helpless was really painful. That is the emotion that will spur you on to do things beyond your capabilities and that what I have not felt for a long long time. But I do wish to return to the field and play my last year of soccer competitively. Or hopefully it will be, cause I got a feeling that I made a promise to not play soccer in Uni, or did I? 0.o??

At least now I know I want to return to playing soccer but I am not sure what would happen if I meet a strong opposition and am unable to make a fool of him. And he is able to make me not play my game and I won't get those cheers if it is an empty stadium. Will I still be happy to play the game even if people are not there and I am unable to make a huge impact.. :/ IDK again and that is a worry.. :/

Hm.. I think I am a troubled boy by this :/ Haha!! But the main gest is come a watch me play and support me lah :D Haha!! I do like to play in front of crowds but don't give me that sad face when I get injured hor, it will stop me from playing my game wholeheartedly.. :(

The Notice board

2012-01-13T21:42:00.001+08:00

Hehe!! Hi guys!!

Today, my post is about doing up the JJC soccer board!! Haha!!

Well, I think you guys know that I am injured and all, yet I need to attend soccer training so I decided to help the soccer guys and do up the notice board.

Before, I show you how it looks like. I got to tell you that the previous one done before I changed it was horrible!! >.< OMG!! It was a fail board!! >.<

So I "so called" transformed it!! Wakaka!! Well, I spent like 5 hours just doing it because I was tanking ti by myself as the other trained. Of course, I got some help from people to draw the stuff that I CMI, but overall, I am pretty satisfied with the board.. :/

It's my first time doing up a notice board and well, I encounter problems like the things not turning out as expected.. :/ And tanking it all alone was time-consuming!! Ouch!! But then just looks at the product, felt satisfying :D Haha!!

But doing this board, it got me wondering how painful it is to do a nice, beautiful handmade card.. :/ Usually, I would do my cards using software so it easy :/ So perhaps I will try to do my next card handmade!! Haha!!

Flashbacks

2012-01-02T22:34:00.001+08:00

Flashbacks... They are somethings that will never leave me.

Well, hi peeps, you should able to tell what I will be talking about right?

Hm.. I hope that most of you know what I am talking about, and that you do know that my brain tends to remember things pretty well. I don't know why, but I am usually able to recall things very well.. Mmm.. A reason why I am able to do so, is becaus eI like to replay the scene in my brain everyday before I sleep.. :/

Well, so I am able to recall the memories I have, the happy and the sad ones. I remember Pei Xuan saying that we do not forget our past, or we don't forget the bitter ones. Hm.. I think its true, the bitter ones where the ones that cut us, or perhaps some scar us. These are our memories, our life, and truly precious because they made us into being who we are today, how we might react in certain situation and such.

But it brings to my next point. These memories tend to flood my brain at times. Especially if I decide to take a bus ride, and blast music into my ears. Some are epic, some are painful, some are happy. But usually, the sad ones tend to return more often then not. Sometimes, the memory is so vivid, its so detailed and you actually feel like its dejavu! And I would start trying to run away, like trying to wake myself up from this flashback. I try to run away, and have been trying to run away. Giving excuses on why those things happened, trying to comfort myself and all, and simply trying to run away.

Well, everyone says its a new year, its time to let go of the past. But it that really possible?! I can't do it! I simply can't. Its like a battle constantly being fought and its affects me outwardly at times. Thats why I am a guy that would sometimes prefer a lonely journey home to try and embrace it instead or I don't take a bus. I am not sure if you understand what I am saying but in layman's terms, its this:

When will we (I believe some of you will feel the same way too) stop running away from those unpalatable memories, those that have perhaps scar us, and start to embrace them? I remember watching "KungFu Panda 2", and it was talking about letting go. Isnt it time to embrace them, stop running away, stop letting those events become barriers for you! Mistakes are meant to be made, painful events were meant to happen for a reason. Its life, embrace it and stop running.

Its a new year, a new start. I have not made any resolution. I haven't thought about them yet, so oh well. 2012 kinda came too fast? Haha!! Happy 2012!! Lolll (No link to the post)

The Raging Battle

2012-01-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

The story of the raging battle.

Hm... Today, I will put a lot of question marks on your forehead with this post.

So lets start a story telling. Its imaginary one again, do not fear ;)

Its been 2-3 years yet the battle is still on going..

The 2 kingdoms have been fighting so vigorously for the past few years, with none looking to give up the battle. But it is obvious that one kingdom is stronger than the other. Yet the weaker one refuses to give in. Instead, he stands up and fight for it!! Fighting for 2-3 years yet none wants to give in to the other, it shows the amount of desire both sides have, don't you think?

As a neutral, you will be just waiting for the stronger, more experienced kingdom to win wouldn't you? But I have wondered about the weaker one.

The amount of times the King will question himself whether it is worth it to continue fighting. Resources are constantly depleting for the weaker nation. The stronger nation constantly has new weapons, new tactics. Perhaps its due the vast experience it has, or other reasons. But it does not diminish the fact that the weaker nation is up against the Goliath. The King, he constantly question if it is worth it to continue fighting. The more he continues the fight, the more resources that were meant for other stuff are being used. And it could lead to dire consequences if he over allocates some resources into the battle. So he question himself, but everything he thinks he should pull out, he can't bare to lose what is at stake. If he gives up, he gives up something he really wants.

Hm.. So as the battle rages on, the more his resources deplete and the more he considers whether to give in. Yet, we know that he won't simply because he considers giving up now a real waste. He has fought a hard and difficult battle. He can see that he is on the back-foot, and he has been on the back-foot for most of the battle. I find it really amazing how this one man is driven by desire, by determination and he continues to fight on, fight a battle many people will deem as a losing battle for him. Just this phrase, "When you feel like giving up, look back at how far you have come."

So how does he press on, what enables to press on? Well, I believe from all that was written, you can see he is driven by desire. The love for that thing, and constant desire for that thing is what has been driving him. So what are his hopes?

They are simple. It is simply to win. To be victorious, to finally win. He hopes this battle will be concluded soon because there were come a day when he has to admit that he has got no more firepower to muster another attack nor even defend his kingdom one day. But he hopes then when its concluded, it will be him and his kingdom celebrating!

But as long as the battle is still raging, there is no way he will be giving up. There is no way that he will lighten up his efforts. Yes, he may need to look into the needs of other things, divert his attention to them, but lets admit it, losing focus of his goal will be something that perhaps he will never forgive himself. It will be an uphill battle, one that he promises to fight on.

*Hoped you enjoy the story, might not be well written, but interpret in your own ways bah :)*

Frustration

2011-12-30T19:27:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps.

Today, I am going to tell you something through a imaginary chat...

Q: Hey bro, how are you??

M: Confused lah.. Like totally!!!

Q: Why confused?

M: Well, I am out for 6 weeks!!!

Q: Oh, what happened??

M: Well, I went for my medical checkup and the doc said I need to rest my knees. So I am out for 6 weeks lah!!

Q: Erm.. Ouch, but thats does not explain how you are confused?

M: Hm.. Coz IDK what to feel, so lets have a heart to heart talk then...

Well, I feel like Voldermort right now! (Nope, I have a nose still!!) I feel like Voldermort, because just like he splits his soul and put them into different objects. My life is almost the same as him. I split myself into so many different things..

Remember the "Deathly Hallows", where once each object he put his soul was destroyed, he loses a part of himself. Well, I feel like that right now. Now, I am out of action for 6 weeks. It feel like I have lost a part of myself!! I have lost the soccer pie, and some of my social life pie... So my pie feels like this:

This is a pie that is not complete, its not a whole pie.

Well, I feel so handicapped right now!! Well, I can't even go out for a jog, I can't play soccer, I can't even kick a ball!! OMG!! I feel so worthless at times, since we all know that soccer is perhaps the thing I am good in, and now that I have lost it, I feel that way!!!

In addition to that, I am having my holidays. So I am pretty free right now. Yes, I am but I need to use this time to complete all my homework!! But because I got so much free time, the thought of me being out for 6 weeks constantly fills my brain and I get "emo-nemo". I have not been going out of my house, because I should be doing my homework, so getting locked up in your own house really sucks especially when the only thing you do is "study". Studying has failed to distract me from this awful fact, so I really am facing waves of negative thoughts, or maybe just that one thought many times, and it really is a struggle!!

I tell myself not to get give in to these negative thoughts, and all but frankly speaking, its really very hard!!

I am also so hyperactive, the inability to do running all all those activities are killing me! I feel like I am a prisoner in chains!! I really want to so something but what can I do?! Playing PS3? Seriously, you must be joking?! Its a bore pwning those noobs aka com! I really can't take it!! And its only day 4 into my 42 days!! I feel like dying!!! Someone save me!!!

ARGH!!!!!! IT LIKE I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP AND ALL!!!! But there nothing much one can do can they?

Reflection on LOL

2011-12-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

Hi dudes,

Hm.. I did not plan to blog about the 4 days and 3 nights of LOL camp. Because my blogging style is telling you the sequence of events kind. So if I did, I will kill myself sia!! So at least reflection of what LOL is to me??

Hm... LOL camp personally to me was something very different from the norm. Usually as eaglets, I would have expected to be involved in the planning, then during the camp, I would be the group leader, then perhaps involved in the running of the camp just like "Inside Out" where I was part of the logistic crew, the worship team, and also a group leader.

So the norm is that we will either be busy or over-stretched, but this camp, it was DIFFERENT. For the first time, I was not involved in anything!! Really!! It felt so weird. The ability to spend time with the Rhema boys was such a different feeling. Sitting down and having a meal as a group has been rare for me in the previous camp due to worship practice but this camp, I could sit down with them for every meal!! It felt weird, but a good weird. It took me awhile to realize that I need not do anything, and just be camper for LOL!! I also had to stop myself from getting myself involved, it was really weird, but it was a good weird to be a camper again just like when I first attend my first youth camp, "Ultimate Experience".

I won't say I fully enjoyed the camp because sometimes things happen which you can't control and it disallows you to fully participate in the camp. Well, that "thing" hindered my overall enjoyment but let me not the party spoiler.

I feel that LOL gave me something more then other camps did, it allowed me to see God move in the lives of the Rhema warriors!! I saw God move in the Rhema boys lives, I saw God touch them and I believe they can testify it too! To see God move in their lives was wonderful, and I believe this camp brought Rhema closer together. I can feel that this new-found unity, be it from trolling people together or whatever, it will help to bring us to new heights!!

So Rhema, I believe that great things are in stored for everyone of us!!

And lets now watch the closing camp video:

Merry Christmas

2011-12-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!! ^^

Hm.. As you can tell, this is my Christmas post. Have you ever wondered what does Christmas means to you?

Before today, Christmas was just another day. Honestly speaking, thats the truth. It was another day.. I know its about celebrating and remember that God send his son to Earth onto this Earth. But really, what does Christmas means to you? Truthfully speaking? Is Christmas about Christ to you?

And how did you spend your Christmas today? Was it a memorable one like mine? An enjoyable one, a relaxing one. Or one to forget? Everyone spends Christmas differently, has a different experience from one another. Well, thats a fact. no doubt about it. But is the meaning of Christmas the same for everyone, because I wished Christmas was Christ. May He be the sole reason for Christmas!!

Hm... I think I have over done the questioning parts le.. How about a story?? Nope, I won't be telling you the Christmas story, but my Christmas Testimony!! How does that sound? Great? Haha...

Today, my dad join us for our Christmas service. Well, he does that every Christmas!! Lol! But he does not seem to be engage in it. Well, it seems like he leaves every Christmas service unchanged. But today was different. Ok, stop lying dey. Alright, you win. Things seem to be the same today and I thought maybe and hopefully something will happen lah. Hope hope hope lah.. Never held any expectations..

Well, but God is amazing. He does miracles. Today, during the altar call. I was just watching people go down to the altar. Never expecting the guy next to me to move at all. Well, thank God I had a fail prediction. My dad took a step out. At first, I thought maybe he going toilet. But I decided to tag along. Then after 2 steps, I see him tear. And I was like, "God, it this really happening??" I straight away knew my Dad was going to head to the altar. But he stopped for a while. Hesitated I guess, so I accompanied him. An arm around him, it felt like I was treating my dad as a buddy sia!! Weird moment. But isnt my heavenly father also a buddy to me?

When I was at the altar with my dad. I was weeping. Because it come upon me that my dad was responding to God for the very first time. Or the first time I saw my dad do so!! This was the moment when I saw God answer my prayer! If I said I never prayed for my dad to receive Christ, I gotta be heartless and i would be lying. So when I saw God answered my prayer. When I saw him responding, I was weeping. Well, i walked away from the altar when people were laying hands on my dad. I couldnt take the wave of emotion. I was crying real bad yo. For a guy, its kinda weird.

But who cares if I cry, I was still shedding tears when I return to my seat. But these were not tears of sadness. This was tears of joy!! God answers prayers. For once, I dont need to fear of that nightmare becoming reality. Instead, its wonderful... what a special Christmas this has been for me!! Apart of the gifts, the CHOCOLATES, the people. My dad responding to God was the greatest Christmas gift anyone, and repeat again, anyone could give to me!!

Hey, lets not get carried away by this alright. Yes, I have perhaps gotten a great gift today. But the war has not ended. We know the devil will fight back. So continue to pray for my dad yea!! I dream of seeing him in heaven!! ^^

Here is a great video to watch too... God sent his greatest gift to you today too!! Receive him into your life yo!! ;)

Ranting about Soccer

2011-12-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps, I really do not know what to blog about this few days.. Well, I have been at LOL camp and it was a blast but I plan to blog it though...

For now, I think I need to rant, about the 3 soccer matches I played for JJC. Why? U will find out soon..

Some background info

Hm.. On 10 dec, JJC played against SAJC..

Well, I like the pitch at SAJC, because it feels like Hong Kah's pitch.. Really enjoyable... Hm.. I have nothing much to rant for this match, because these guys know how to play soccer. And I believe I showed them that I was dangerous, and a threat too.. Haha, yupyup, I managed to obtain a 100% shot-goal percentage. 2 goals out of 2 shots!! Wee.. :D I must really say I enjoyed this match because I dribbled and had fun getting past them so easily. It was like they were toys, I was fooling around with.. Hehe... I love it when people commit thinking they could get the ball from me.. Hehe.. And they did not dished out elbows, kicks nor taunts at me.. :) but we still lost though.. :(

Then on Tuesday, we played against ACS(I).. -.-

This was one match that I must really get off my chest.. After the SAJC match, I was feeling fine. Going to this game in what was pretty fine form, and planning to get the job done... Well, I expected to make a fool out of them until..

Well, I really hate their right-back!! I really want to scold $%&@Y%(@?Y&! at him, because he dished out tackles at me, he used his spikes to maximum effort. How? By piercing them into my leg, smart move right!! Bloody %&*#*, up to this day, the mark is still there... And he made a freaking hole in my only red pants!! Bloody $%&@ , guess what? He did not even apologize!! I wanted to beat like until he couldn't move... Seriously, tackling my legs instead of the ball, elbowing me in the face, making a hole in my pants.. I don't think he was the one who injured my ankle, or was he??

Well, there was also taunting from them, such as good dive, or diver.. and many more.. Even though it was a foul.. Seriously, I was pissed off... but thank God, he was taken off.. If not things really could have been nasty!! Well, but his teammates taunted me.. Well, I got fed up with that too... But i was really restraining myself!! I was really angry, I wanted to go up to the guy, and say, "Eh, you want pick fight ah. Come lah, I not scare you.."

Hm.. The gangster self within me nearly surfaced, and if that happened!! Off I go for an early shower!! Coz I would have punched him even if he was buffer than me!!

Haiz.. I really nearly lost my cool during that match, and I really diverted that anger at them.. By attempting kungfu kicks that look like I am going for the ball, but its actually their face. Small little elbows into their stomach or waist (coz they all bigger sized).. Somehow, I felt possessed. Even when I was tired, my body told me I must beat them!! And I finally scored against them. I scored a goal.. And like my friend tweeted, I showed them who was boss. Scoring a goal with 2 defenders beside you and a goalkeeper rushing at you.. Hm..

IDK, if this was a good match. Because for once, this was no more just a chore nor job. This was payback!! This was revenge! This meant something to me!! Though, it was not a good feeling, it still was feeling! I might not love my soccer yet, but I managed to feel something during a match now!!

Then 16 dec we challenged MI,

I have to admit, I was not professional enough, my head was turned slightly by the fact LOL camp has started!! Well, I had this mindset, "the team needs me" Which in a way is true, the team needs everyone yet no one is bigger than the team.

Hm.. Ok, lets get started. I got elbowed in the nose for this match.. There was this guy, when everytime I felt I was fouled, he was just shout. "Get up lah" Seriously, he was provoking me.. Of course now that I was experience, He gets hurt, not me.. Wakakaka!! When he fell, I wanted to shout at him, "Eh. weak ah, get up lah!" Well, I reheld. Then I asked to get sub out, because due to the ACS(I) match, I was still badly hurt, and my speed has been affected because my ankle is not as strong!! So game over for me then.. :/

If you were at LOL camp and you saw me running. That aint my fastest, cool right? Becoz I still was pretty fast during the camp! Wakaka!!

Well, these are the 3 matches... And I hate the treatment I get in soccer matches!! I really hate it, and it doesn't help when you find playing soccer a chore!! God!! Help me!! >.<

Time at RWS and USS

2011-12-07T21:05:00.002+08:00

P.S Sry for this huge delay!! I need to get the pictures from my friends, and this post is really long!! But everything still applies, I believe you are really going to be blessed from this post!! Enjoy ;)

Even though, I feel tired because I did not managed to get a lot sleep on the super comfortable bed of RWS, due to Ian but I feel very refreshed from my time in the RWS and USS!! Haha!! I really enjoyed myself, and God reminded me of many things about him in USS!! So my post will be on RWS and USS alright!!

In RWS, I throughly enjoyed myself, and I made sure I enjoyed it an had a great time of relaxation. We were stayin at the Hard Rock Hotel and the beds were so comfortable!! I could sleep for a whole day if I was allow de leh!! Then on 10 nov, the class guys or it was just Ian, Han Wei and me who decided to go for a morning swim!! Wee!! I dont live in a condo, right? So morning swim was a never in a lifetime until today!! Haha!! It was fun, though I did not have a goggle, but I realise I have not forgotten how to swim!! And swimming can be considered a workout yea?? Haha!! The swimming pool is also very cool!! There is a section that is like a beach, there is sand in the pool and sand for you to lie down!!! OMG! Zai boi?! I was blown aback!! So cool! Then we went to relax at the spa pool! My first time in a spa pool too!! OMG, it was relaxing! I never had a spa before leh :O

So overall, I really relaxed in Hard Rock Hotel!! Its a relaxing time for me!! And I am greatly refreshed from it. Wow...

So lets talk about on my time in USS alright?

On wed (9 Nov), I had soccer training. Then I rushed over to RWS! I had asked to be released early, so I could rush down to join my class for USS! Before I continue, I just want to let you know that I have never been to USS MY WHOLE LIFE until yesterday!!

So I reached there at around 11.30!! I chionged from training, that I waited outside USS for my classmates to pick up my call cause a newbie just arrived. Guess what, I waited 30 mins outside while they were enjoying their rides!! -.- Until they called me back. Then they told me they were at the Mummy area, newbie did not get lost ;) but he waited again for 30 mins in USS itself as my classmate did not tell me thy had moved on -.-

Wow, imagine my impatience! I spent 1 hour just waiting, and I paid $66 t do that! I was angry, in my head, I was thinking what a great class outing in a sarcastic tone. It was a great test of patience and a test for myself to make sure I would not be a spoil person and spoil the fun on a day that everyone greatly anticipated and was so agog for!! Thankfully, God gave me patience and help me. And the day was savaged and it drastically changed after I meet them... Praise God!!

That was just the daily trial each of us would face daily. And a opportunity God uses to change me.

BUT this is a main gest of USS for a first timer in USS!! Hehe!! God revealed to me the kid in me!! and He got me thinking of many things about him, about His word and principles of life.

When I first stepped in USS, I was amazed by the scenery. It was very nice but like a "grown up" boy, I quickly realise this was cheap thrill. The place seemed like as if you were in Hollywood but it was just a fake, a copycat, and it was a cheap thrill! Perhaps it is the values the world teaches us that we will not settle for second best, hence my "cheap thrill" judgement. Well, today God was going to change my thinking today! Mind-blown :O

When I meet up with the rest of my class. They decided to rest, so instead of sitting with them and wasting away my $66, I went with Avery to ride my very first ride in USS!! BATTLESTAR GALACTICA! I knew that the ratings for this ride was very high, and as I watched the people screaming, and the pace of the ride. I was afraid!! Yes, I was afraid. Someone who is known to be very brave/fearless suddenly was as timid as a mice!! Eeks!! But Avery got to me ride the red line!!

So before I commentate on my very first ride. We need background info on why I was so fearful!! Well, I have never taken a roller coaster ride since I was 5 years old! Yes, I am that deprived but its a like of an athlete, we all have to scarifice! So lets get back on track with the adventure yea?!

I remember walking up the ride, to the platform. That fear within me. It felt so weird, it has been a long time since I felt so nervous and afraid. Then again, I was so amused, by the decoration and design. Wow, its has been a long time since I felt this amused. I was taken aback.... I don't know what to say, but all of a sudden, I was no more that brave Yue Seng I knew, or had always been. I might be a whiner at times, and refuse to do things, but I have never been afraid to do them! I have done high elements, and all the scary stuff at Serve'11 but I was never frightened, so why of a sudden was I afraid? Hm.. I don't have a reason, but I was afraid, scared, terrifying yet excited. This was something I have not done since 5 years old!! So lets get on alright!!! The ride was so scary!! I closed my eyes most of the time! And I held on to the seat with all my strength! I was so scared!! Eeks!! I felt like an elephant seeing a mice!! Suppose to be brave but scared by something that people enjoy and deems at fun!!

Usually guys would say must be brave, cant scream like sissy! I tired not screaming, but I failed badly after halfway through!! Well, I thought I was going to die!! I remember the shocked face I still had after getting off the ride. Wow!! I am really very stunned!! Or I was!!

Then after that I went to take cyclon!! It is the blue one, the one where your feet dangle in the air!! And it goes 360 degrees turn, twisting and turning, and at high speed!! Eeks!! This was worse!! You know why? Avery got me into seating into the first row!! And I was taking this for the first time, I did not know what to expect!! I was more terrified, I was going to see everything in a front view, the whole USS and all!! Terrified ttm yea?! This time, must be more "man" I

would open my eyes!! Ahaha!! And I did, I managed too!! But now, I was sure I was dead!! Ahaha!! Really, after the ride, I was like, "are my legs intact?" and "am I alive?" I was traumatized.... Yet, I was hyped up!! I could not stop talking about what I saw to Avery. It was like as if I was child again!! I could not stop chattering about it, even after the ride, I could not stop talking about it! It was great yet so scary!! I don't know why, instead of the "orh" me, I became a chatter box!! Soon USS was no more a cheap thrill, this was the real thing!!

Well, it got me thinking why all of the sudden in thinking. My reason, I become a kid all over again. That fear changed me. Why? Simple, as we grow up.

Each of us experiences hurts, and we harden our hearts so we won't feel them. Am I not right? Admit it, its true. as we do so, we tend to be less sensitive because we refuse to open up. I did, I refused to scream remember?? BUT for me, just as my mouth was forced to open and give out that high, sharp, and piercing scream that had made Clara shocked, my heart was also opening up. It was vulnerable all over again. I was no more a grown up that had put on the front of being wise, but a kid all over again. And being a kid, I felt like I had no more pride to look after. I was a child, simply a child. Not concern about keep face, or pride but just wanting to enjoy what they was for me to enjoy! It was a lesson, that my pride was not that important. "Why bother about leaving some face for yourself and then you hide the self that God wants you to live out loud? Why would you choose pride over the plans God had planned for you? Why live life the way the Earth says and miss out of the great fun God has for you?"

I took this ride again and again and again at around 6 when we had rode every other ride and everytime I put on that safety beat, I was afraid. Still afraid, but I was willing to scream like a kid again. Not wanting to act tough though I was sitting next to girls (guys, you know you tend to act tough in front of them, don't you?) but just enjoying this ride. And guess what, I rode it until I could lift up my hands, open my eyes and SCREAM!!

So here is the next point. Remember the part when I said I was going to die? Why did I say so, because I had no trust in the safety of the seat belt until I had tried it and realised that IT WORKS!! :O

God taught be two things. The first time I rode it, I asked myself why did I do it and not back out. simply because of faith!! I did not trust it, but I need faith to do this and trust the safety!! I don't really care about stats, I just knew I was scared! So it is the same when God tells you to take a step out of your comfort zone! We need faith to make that first step... Faith indeed.

The second is this. After I rode it many things, I became to trust it and could lift up my hands. It reminded me of how once we have experienced God's goodness and his wonders. We will begin to trust him totally, just like how I began to trust that seat beat... Some pics, sounds cools?

Then another place that got me thinking was Far Far Away.

Ok, actually Far Far Away got me thinking a lot more than Battlestar Galactica!! I hope you all know how does Far Far Away look like, is a grand castle. And of course that sense of awe was still tingling within me. And it was this sense of awe that got me wondering, how would the kingdom of God look like??

Hm.. For this section of the post, I will need you to look at some of the wonderful picture I took using my friend's camera...

Just looking at it, I really want to imagine. Imagine God standing at the top of the balcony, and we are at the bottom all looking up to him. Hear the applause, hear the cheers, hear the praises.. Wow.. I wonder how heaven's will look like when we go there someday. Where the streets are made of gold, and everything is so wonder. Being in Far Far Away, it got me wondering if this place looks so nice, how much more wonderful would heaven be!! :D

The Sign "Far Far Away is Here!" As I took this picture, what came to my mind was the phrase in the bible.

His lord said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord. - Matthew 25:21"

Imagine God telling me that at the end of my days on Earth and that will be the moment I enter into Heaven!! Wow!! Why did that thought come? Coz Isn't Heaven far far away from us now?? And to see the word "Far Far Away is here" sign, it struck me like this is the moment I was entering Heaven!! haha!! Though, it was not since I am still on Earth but it struck me how cool it would be to see the sign "Heaven is Here" sign in future!!

Next up!! As you can see, is this shield I took while going to watch the Shrek 4D show!! Hm... Are you thinking what i am thinking??

Yes, it served as an reminder that god is our shield!!

"As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the LORD is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him. - 2 Samuel 22:30-32"

So it really reminded me of how God is my shield, my strength, my refuge, and my everything!! Entering Far Far Away reminded me many things about God.

Well, get this is our mind. God is your shield!! He protects you, He will always protect you. How comforting is that!! :)

Here is a song that really is timing with this small truth!! :D

And next, is this crown that you see. I bet you can guess what this all about!! Its about our King!!! Yes, God is our King, and he will come again... Well, I found this crown very cool!! You know why, because its is giving out water...

It reminded me of how God continues to fill us up, pouring out his love for us. Well, the crown symbolizes God, and the water, his love, his peace, his grace, his mercy.... Always being poured out to his children.. Did you have think of that when you when into USS??

Well, those were more or so the images I wanted to show you and talk about... Indeed, going to USS was an eye-opening experience. One that I will remember for a very long long time!! :D

So some pics top end this off ;) Enjoy yea!! :D

Cowardly?

2011-12-06T23:01:00.002+08:00

Hm... Looks like the "You are the Apple of my eye" movie hype has not ended..

Well, to keep you waiting for my USS post! Her is something the boy realise about himself when woo-ing the girl.

Well, I kinda share my past "love life" with someone rather recently, Fulfilling a pinky promise lah!! Then as I came across, this picture, and read the words. I felt that the are quite true... :/ So must share lah!! LOLOLOL!!

You are the Apple of my Eye

2011-11-30T22:59:00.003+08:00

Hi peeps,

Today, I went to watch the movie, "you are the Apple of my Eye" with my soccer friends!! Haha! I like spend this whole week with them sia!! Even on rest days/ non-training days also go out!! Ahaha!!

Well, but that is not the main purpose of this post. Firstly, this movie is really nice!! The storyline is really moving yet also sad... While it has also some sick parts, but that aside, it is pretty good.. I might want to watch it again if I could!! Of course we others people lah...

Hm.. This is a love story movie lah!! I don't plan to spoil the show for you if you have not watched it... But as I watched this show, it remind me that this main character (male one ah) was a lot like me... Don't like to study, heck care attitude. Then because of a girl that like to pock her nose in, she forces you to do work... Remembers how Pearl took my PSP away last time, or Sheena forcing to me to study.. :/

Well, this show was very touching, and I agree, to every guy. There is that one girl that is the apple of their eye, each has his own but not everyone has a happy ending just like this show...

Some pics to see, as I see them, I know the scenes! IT REALLY IS VERY TOUCHING!! IT FELT LIKE AS THOUGH I WAS WATCHING MY OWN LIFE STORY with a few corrections and edits here and there.. But that story line ah... Haiz... Oh well, that was a long time back... I have moved on already... Still, every guy will want to find his Mrs Right, true?? :(

Logger heads!! Really!! They were!!

The guy takes the rap for the girl, so sweet!!! >.<

The girls feels grateful, she decided to coach him in his studies!!

He really does his work!!

Omomomomomo! Well, that all I plan to show, this was more or so how the story developed, much there is still much more. This is not even the climax, its just the starting I showed you.. MUST WATCH!! >.<

Playing for Main Service was...

2011-11-27T23:04:00.006+08:00

Hi peeps, I know I have not been updating this blog regularly (like always).. :/

Well, today, I want to blog about my experience playing for main service today!! Eeks!!

Hm.. So what can I say?? (please realise that I have actually put in the lyrics of the Stand here :O ) Hm.. this was a unique experience!! The reason, I was pushed out of my comfort zone!! Really pushed out of it big time!!!

The past few days (since thursday) I have been sick, not really running a fever but feeling ill lah... Like I have a running nose, headache, diarrhea, cough, feel like vomiting, breathlessness(only after training, and was heading down to church that period where I experience it) and sorethroat!! A lot right!!! Thats way I have been spamming myself with panadol, and thats the reason, why I think I am killing myself since I have not seen the doctor, nor my parents know that I am feeling unwell... So being ill was one of the hurdles I would be facing when playing for main today!

Actually, thats the main reason. Because I have been feeling unwell, and I got the invitation by andy to serve rather late, like on thursday, I was not really able to sit at my piano and keep practicing!! Today, I went up with the lack of practice.. :( I also have been attending my soccer training despite my state of physical health, so my condition has been worsening as the day passes :/

So my previous paragraph has been telling you the difficulty I faced when preparing. Lets take out saturday where I had to skip both my breakfast and lunch to attend training, music prac, D.I, and the BBQ outreach to the BB boys( I couldnt eat the food there -.-) which my God's grace, he pulled me through!! Phew!! Thank God

Well, why did I say I was pushed out my comfort zone??

Firstly, I am not used to playing in main. Usually, I have been playing for D.I so when I was playing for main today, I felt frightened, had that 'stage-fright' feeling.... I tell you a fact, my leg was shacking when I was playing.. :/ Yes, I admit. I was afraid.... I dont have butterflies in my stomach when I am serving in D.I but in main, it was a different story :/

Secondly, Andy told me that I could not play strings/pads for the last 2 songs!! OMG!!! I was stunned!! Yes!! Becoz usually, I don't play keys. I have never done that in D.I nor anywhere... I have always been playing pads all the way, so when I was told play keys. I was stunned, yet perhaps maybe a bit excited because now, I would be taking up more percentage of the 'pizza'... :D So this would have been something new!! But why play something I am not used to in a placed that I rarely feature!! OMG!! I was pushed out of my comfort zone... Try imagine that feeling of playing some different from what you usually do in front of more people, some more with the LACK OF PRACTICE!!!! >.< OMG!!! Why this was really different, and do different makes you feel nervous and weird, and afraid!! :/ Out of my comfort zones indeed!!

The overview of my problem then? For slackers like me to read... I was sick, with many symptoms, I lacked practice, I could not do what I usually did instead had to do stuff I have never tried before, hence causing shocked within my camp.. And whoa!!

Well, how was the experience doing it then?? Hm.. It was interesting!! Very intriguing too... Ok, lets move on..

Overall, the experience was good for me because this was something new lah... Getting out of your comfort zone would definitively improve me!! But personally, I need to get this off my chest..

I THINK I PLAYED VERY BADLY!! Or by my standard, I would actually spit at myself man, seriously, way way not up to standard.. During the worship, I took very long to settle down, making a lot of blunders!! Many many many!! I was like, "Oh come on, man!!" to myself for the whole thing... My walk-down, cocked up at the end. During unending love, from the verse 1 to chorus, only mistakes.. -.- during communion, pressed so many wrong keys... And the list goes on and on.. This was perhaps the first worship set that I made so many mistakes in my life!! I feel extremely disappointed in myself!! Very very very!!

But I remember what was shared in D.I yesterday. "DO NOT LOOK AT YOURSELF AS A FAILURE, BECAUSE IN GOD'S EYES, YOU ARE NOT ONE!" (Yes, I managed to listen despite being sick!! :D ) And thank God, for the encouragement many church members gave me. Actually it more like, "Whoa, playing for main le ah.." kind of encouragement lah, I also asked if my mistakes were very obvious, many said, "no." so thank God yea.. *phew*

I remember Lefa encouraging me viz sms, saying that I was improvement, which felt like I have been rewarded for the hard work and hours I a=have spend playing my piano at home...

Read this quote yea, I really agree with it.. By moving out of my comfort zone, I am improving, I am pushing my limits, and one day, I will be playing first keys for you to hear!! Best part of the journey? I am going to show how one does not need to have a proper lesson to play to that standard!! :P

Meaningful phrases

2011-11-18T21:21:00.007+08:00

Hi peeps!! Well, otday's training is super titring but I am awake because I need to prac for tmr!! Yupyup! Tmr is FTW!! :D :D

these few days, I really got nothing to blog about, so in order to update.. SO nice picture with extremely meaningful words.. Hoping to get inspiration for a new d.p yea!!

But do enjoy looking at them :)

P.S Stay tune for the post on USS yea!! I am trying to get the pictures!! :D Then it will be out and then you can enjoy that post :D

PW is over!! Woohoo!!

2011-11-16T14:00:00.005+08:00

Yes lah!! Today, PW officially ended!! Which is so good!!

Well, I am still wondering if this post should be a reflective one or a short one. I think a short one bah...

Before I start, I want to thank God for good teammates lah!! Or hardworking ones!! Haha!! If not, I would have been cursing my luck for PW!! Haha!!

Hm.. This journey with JJ136 was a pleasant memory!! Because, we got a rather well? Nah, just joking lah.. I was the most irritating person in the group, but that is me. What to do?? Haha!!

I actually can't believe one year has past just like that. It feels like the journey just began yesterday. Like it was the first time we had a group meeting, and then tio appointed leader! Haha!! Don't worry, I never did my job as one!! LOL....

I still remember us doing our WR, our model for OP, practicing so many times for OP. And all the epic memories!! LOL... But it has all ended, I am to lazy to go into all the details of the memories though I can, because my brain has a rather vivid memory of the events and also because I got soccer in 30 minutes time!! EEks >.<

Well, how abt some pictures to see first?? Yea?

Well, these is the model of our strategies!! Hehe!! Nothing going to say!! :P But nice right!! See the hardwork put in!! I really do hope my effort and hardwork do pay off in the end!! Like when I get back my result, I hope to see an A!!

Alright, later people complain say this post nothing epic!! Fine, I tell you how my OP went yesterday?! :D

Haha!!

Alright, my OP was crazy!! It was a full house yo, perhaps because people always say the best save for last? Haha.. Just joking.. Yesterday, my OP had 6 teachers and 9 audience attending it! crazy right?? We had the chief moderator, external moderator and the accessers!!

LOL.. And in order to relieve stress, I started cracking jokes as we waited for it to start. Guess where I cracked them, in front of the teachers and audience because we were waiting for 2 more teachers.. And of course, made a fool of myself.. But I don't really mind... Coz I don't bother about my reputation nor looks ;)

Well, overall. I think I did well. I destroyed my model halfway through the presentation though.. Not intentionally of course!! Haha!! I truly enjoyed the experience though! Hopefully I impressed the 6 teachers!! Seriously, 6 abit too much ah!! And will do well for PW, if not ah.. WALAO SIA!!

S.H.A.P.E

2011-11-07T21:13:00.004+08:00

Why is it so difficult to start studying again??

Haiz.. Its the holidays people!! Woohoo!! HOLIDAYS for me!! But then again, I feel like I am rotting. I trying studying, but I am not productive. Then I go and read books which I feel is more productive for me.

Well, this will be short, but I really want but am not productive in my studies now sia!! Haiz!! howhowhow??

Well, I do have my goals for this holiday. For one, I want to regain my abs back!! :( Haha!! I felt that I grew fat during my Promos period. :( :( So I will grow more buff this holiday yea!! Haha..

Then again, on second thought, I dont want be buff! Haha!! Really, I have always like my skinny frame. I can't imagine myself like Eugene, :/ I would like a well-toned body :) Yupyup... And of course, regain my abs is of importance!! haha.. I just dont want to be fat!! Haha Just joking..

So my previous pragargraph was pure random crap. Here are the real goals. I want to keep in SHAPE. Remember what pastor talked about on the first day, about us keeping in shape. This holiday, I want to be in shape, both spiritually and physically...

Hence, I am going to catch up on my reading!! :) So far, I am done with "The Grip of Grace" which I mention in my previous post and now I am now on a journey with "the Air I Breathe"..

And I hope you have planned what you want to achieve this holiday!! :D God bless yea ;)

Grace-releasers

2011-11-06T20:28:00.004+08:00

Hi peeps!!

Today pastor talked about grace.. And how funny this actually is!! I am like embarking on the series of Grace!! Haha!!

First, I finished the book my "mum" bought for me. "The Grip of Grace" And indeed, I have learnt much grace from this book!! :D Thanks mummy!!

Then today, Pastor timothy talked about Grace. How we are meant to be grace receivers and also grace releasers!!... And today, I have to put it into action again!! Haiz... Super fast implement sia.. Haha.. Which is actually GOOD!! Haha!!

Well, today, I had a soccer match. And before I went for this match, I had a recall on "The Grip of Grace". Why? Because I was talking to Pearl about it. Random conversation FTW yea :D Haha!! Then I was telling her what this book was lah. I do think that book was a rhema word for me at that time. Cause she bought it for my Bday, and during that time, I was feeling very down. Who won't be if their CTs result are so bad and so faithless!! :( And indeed, God provides us grace yea!! :) Haha!! :D

So I kinda recapped on it, then supplemented with what Pastor had preached about, I like whoa!! almost info-overload sia!! Haha.. Nah, it was God preparing for the trial!! So lets move on to the soccer match yea?

Well, I was very frstrated with my teammates! I find it so unacceptable when people passing are like shit,k when they don't run, when they don't communicate, when they don't seem serious!! Wow!! I shouted a lot! I was really angry, fed up and you know the emotions...

Here is the trial. In a soccer match, when a person is pumped up and adrenaline hormones are highly active , he might say somethings that are inappropriate. Even Arsene Wenger (Manager of Arsenal) said so himself, as the investigation of John Terry rascism saga continues.. So when I was angry, i was shouting at my teammates to wake up! And if you have ever seen me in competitive mood, you would think I am scary enough.. Now imagine an angry me!! OMG!! That rather bad!! :/ And when you are angry, and playing a match. Its pretty hard to watch your words. I was trying to not saying anything hurtful words to my teamamates!! and I am not sure if I did, but if I remember correctly, I did not. The worse I said was,"if you all play like that, we can't even beat ACS(I)" I feel like that would have been an insult for someone who has achieve one of the things some people just dream of :/

Well, Grace people! GRACE! It occurred to me halfway to stop shouting at them, because not everyone is me. But i would admit, they gradually improved. Grace. I had to be gracious to them, I should be considerate, not giving them additional problem, I should be encouraging, I should be merciful... Pastor said these are some tips on be gracious, I will not list all but here are some:

- Be patient with people

- By the language we use when speaking to them.

- By being considerate to them

- Freely forgive

- Don't condemn and give up on them

- Emphasize with mercy, not justice.

So these came into my mind, and I began keeping my voice to myself!! Haha!! :D Haha!! Be gracious!! I know I am not perfect, and I am sure that I might not have ticked every box that pastor mentioned but I am learning. I am still learning!! Haha I believe God is molding me, and he still is.

"God, I know you are still molding me. You are still teaching me and in every event in my life. Teach me Lord, to be a grace releasers!! What I have learnt must turn into action if not I have been wasting my time. So God, it will be hard, but teach me, Lord."

Time is of the Essence

2011-11-03T17:02:00.005+08:00

Hm... I have decided to title this, "Time is of the Essence!!" Oh ya!! This post was meant to be yesterday's post but I was exhausted yesterday after training so it has becomes today's post!

Well, nowadays my school ends about 10am.. Then training starts at around 3.30 pm!! Oh my!! That is like 5.5 hours of free time!! so on wednesday, this happened. I ended insted of 10, I ended at 9 coz I got no more lesson liaoz. So I was really free, and it occurred to me how free I suddenly felt! 5 hours is a lot of time!! And it struck me that I could be wasting my time!! Well, I tried mugging, but failed rather badly. All I did was read a few pages of my Macroeconomics notes! Then I went to eat at Mac then went back to play soccer from 1pm!! Ahaha!!!

Well, and it struck me. How have I used my time? Am I wasting my time?? I remember quitting OGL on the reason that I won't have much time but since I do now, how have I been using it??

We are living in the end times and Time is of the essence!!! So it really struck me!!

God, help me use my properly! I need time management!!

OGL Pondering

2011-11-01T20:45:00.003+08:00

OGL.. OGL.. OGL...

How this gave me a headache! Hm... I was thinking about whether to join, then quit or not..

I really was put in a difficult position, one side of me wanted to be an OGL, another side of me did not want me to be an OGL.

Haiz.. I doubt I can fully explain this not really welcomed headache..

Hm.. The reasons why I wanted to do this because i felt it would be fun, then again everything is fun! Haha!! just joking, I where got so shallow anyhow make decision de lah!! Haha.. Hm..

This OGL decision was a fight among the big 3, Soccer, Studies and Church.

I hope all of you know about my big dream, to be crowned a national champion in Soccer. That has been my dream. Well, so i wanted to join OGL to enter head first and see who are the can play soccer the dudes and get them to join soccer. Hm.. U may be asking weren't the people just join since soccer is so popular. Well, not all I believe. I remember how I was considering joining another CCa and not soccer. But somehow I could not make up my mind and by default, soccer became my CCa -.- So not all the players will join, and in JJC, rugby since more cool and appealing to the duds leh.. Hm.. Haiz.. So I actually wanted to go and enter into the politics.

And I also wanted to go and play lah... Haha!! The same trick wont work. So here is the next reason, I need CIP hours.. Hm... My CIP have been crappy since I join soccer in secondary school.. Well, I have been so busy! So so busy! I need to study, I need to train, I need to answer God's call. He has been faithful, I can testify. I remember Love Beyond, and the CIP hours thing for the people in extreme makeover. Well, if it was me in need of CIP hours. Don't you find it funny why I chose not to help sinc I as good as did not study for CTs? erm.. Well, cause I don;t think its right to do it for CIP, I rather do it for God. I belive d.I embarked on LB to show the community God loves them not that we want CIP hours. Hm.. Oh well, just saying lah, not that anyone did extreme makeover for CIP hours.

So being an OGL, I would get like 90 hours of CIP! Which is wow! but then its not worth it because we will put in more than 90 hours of our time. So I rebutted it lor.. Haiz..

Then there are so many reasons that said no. Time, Church, Studies... 2 of my big 3 were against it. And by quitting, I think I have made the right choice. I do feel liberated yet at the same time, I am sad I wont be an OGL.. :(

But I told myself this. By being an OGL, whats does it do? Am I glorifying myself or God? I can say I can be an OGL and serve God, but almost everything under the Sun can be deemed as serving God. So beware when you say serve God. Hm.. I wanted this for myself, not for God. And then again, what are my reasons for coming to JJC. Shouldn't it be for studies? Not being an OGL. Then I got soccer, I will be rather packed with D.I and church stuff during the holidays or in December hence I decided to quit.

Well, I thought it through. It was hard, but then again, its time God be the main goal.

John 3:30
He must increase, but I must decrease.

31 Oct 2011

2011-10-31T21:14:00.004+08:00

OMG!! Today, i took my Chinese paper..

Well, I am not going to blog anything about how i feel right now, though I don't feel confident at all..

Instead, this is a very interesting post.

On Sunday, Pastor Timothy talked about to love is to forgive.. And who knew on the day I took my Chinese paper, I would be writing and exercising it?

Today, Chinese paper was just stunned me. everything I prepared for, nothing came out!! *See my shocked face*

Well, I was forced to write something I never practice for!! :O Sigh... I wrote q2, for those who took the paper. You should know.

Hm... How do I explain. I was suppose to write a story of a boy who came from a poor family, then he broke some school rules and the school wanted to expel him. However, the new principal decided against it and he soon went on to achieve great results in his exams.

So I wrote about it. Just write lah!! But interestingly, instead of talking about how the student begged to the prinicpal not to expel him. I just said, the principal forgave him. No reasons, no explanation was needed, he was simply forgiven. And then i talked about how the student thought it was joke, and could not believe it!

Doesn't it sound familiar? I was talking about the gospel.... It was so familiar!! How we all have wronged God, yet he forgave him. No reasons, no explanation needed. Then he encouraged us, he clothed us, he gave us all we needed, to shine in this dark dark world... and who knew, I would be "sharing" it in this way? Hm.. I don't really bother about whether I met the compo criteria, instead, I am more interesting in tell people about a true story...

And i got a video to share!!

I find this very cool!! And a timely reminder to myself....

haha!! Oh well, this is not the end of my post though.

After my exam, I went out with the soccer dudes from JJC.. Well, we went to play street lah.. The unexpected happened after the expected happen!! Haha

I got injured, yes I did. But here is the interesting part. I have no idea why the "mats' wanna to punch me. They said I don;t know how to play soccer, but i think they dont know the rules. Are not body checks, and dribbling allow in soccer? I played soccer, without any intention what so ever but they just wanted a fight. I don't know their problem, and knowing my ego. I doubt I can sallow this pill, but I forgive them. I forgive them to be free, I rather set free myself and not allow the devil to have a stronghold on me. (Its amazing how Pastor talked about forgiveness the day before.) So today, i had to exercised what i learn. Though i still wonder what might have been if he punched me.. I have a feeling I will return it to him and start a figth.. Haizzz.. But I am not perfect am I?

Chinese As

2011-10-24T21:10:00.003+08:00

Hi guys,

I going to take my Chinese A'level examination really really soon! Like one more week!! Eeks!! I am so afraid! Ok, you cn't hear it but it true!! I do not want to take Chinese anymore!! Nononono!! :(

Well, I am afraid, I am very very afraid! I want to pass this badly but my chinese sucks! It has always been the cause! Oh well, so its time to apply the lesson God has taught me. Which is to have faith. Faith that can move mountains...

I need faith, cause this is the biggest test out of the lot. Well, if you remember, I failed my Chinese in Promos and now it can't be the case! It has to pass, I really have to pass!!

Hm.. I don't know how to describe the feeling I have. Right now, I still feel relieved about my great escape and I am beginning to slack off, and take my foot off the gas!! Which is not good! I need to start working again! my battle is not finished!!

Well, So God! please help me! I know I might be actually MORE SCREWED than I was for Promos coz language can't be really studied.. Hm.. And test of faith. Another bigger mountain...

Promos Experience

2011-10-05T22:41:00.007+08:00

hey guys.. Just wanna share my experience during the promos period coz i know that this was one tough period for me lah..

Well... I will go from the start like the preparation to promos!! Hm.. One week before sound goods?

Hm.. Frankly speaking, I think my preparation in terms of doing it last minute wasn't really very last minute lah.. Coz my econs I finished mugging it like one week before my promos, though biology was never touched and math, chem was barely touched :/

Still, I gonna talk about my experience, and how I felt not exactly what I did lah.. Usually if you were in my shoes, you would be pressing the panic button like crazy, right? Haha.. The pic super pro.. :D Panic Button Pro, only suitable for people like me :D

But interestingly, I was not.. In fact, I felt pretty calm.. Hm.. It was like a peace within me.. Hm.. The peace that God was with me..

Well, somehow, I find that my promo was like a second chance lah. A chance to redeem myself. Well, I believe some of you know how I felt like a faithless boy.. I felt like I was Peter denying the Jesus when people where trying to persecute you., during the CTs period. And after it was over, the rooster crowed.. But this is not my post content! I am not going to get sucked back into that black emo hole...

Hm.. Remember the part when after Jesus rose up from the dead and he kinda confronted Peter?

Well, then he gave Peter his second chance, as Peter said he loved Jesus, and Jesus, "Feed my sheep.."

Well, I feel like this promos is a second chance. though from the outside, i look like I did not learn my lesson.. Kinda true actually.. But I feel different inside. It was the peace. Seriously, not joking..

Then slowly but surely, I got stressed.. Not as bad as CTs liaoz leh.. But I was, my hair can prove it. Everytime I am stressed, my hair is able to move into weird hairdos!! :D Weee.. LOL.. And this period, I could do make different kinds sia :D LOL...

Well, on tuesday, I had to complete revising biology. 9 Chap of bio. :( Coz never touch at all what.. Chiong sio.. Ok, lepak first then chiong. I started work at 3pm only :/ LOL.. Lepak really lepak... LOL.. But hey, I made to chiong 6 chaps.. Not bad leh.. Maybe, you think you got chance in the exam to pass :D Hehe...

SO... TODAY IS THE DAY!! Nah, Weds was the day it all started. The 4 days that would decide my fate.. One year gone to waste anot? Hmz.. And of course you hope to started it off well. so you go and take your GP paper, and you are like what?! Coz in your brain, only got bio content!! So I was stunned there for a while. And what do you do when something like this happens? Write rubbish.. the ques was the are aged valuable. I was like... No!! I say waste $$ nia.. LOL..whole essay on this point, I super blur like sotong. confirmed inherited my SOMEBODY lah... (Lololol. some people wont get who the somebody is :D) Oh well.. Then GP got the comprehension. And I was like.. Parenting!! What the bleah!! Me not parent, me only children. me no get what talking passage?!?! :O

So with that, I leave you to conclude how GP paper was for me :D

Move on to bio! Yes., in the same day! CRAZY JJC! 4 PAPERS ONE DAY!! CRAZY AH CRAZY AH, You PREGENANT AH! LOL... Okok, relac lah, abang.. LOL...

Well, I thought, MCQ, chiong then nap.. Then I did first 6 question. KABOOM!! Dark clouds come and flood my brain. Thunder and lightening occurs.. Ok lah, bad headche nia.. WHICH IS NOT GOOD!!! :(

MY WHOLE HEAD BLANKED OUT!! Thats is just bad... All my info down the drain... Well, I wont say I am a goner for bio coz my God could pull off a trick or two. Well, but in human terms, I am not optimistic about it! But let me say this again. MY GOD CAN DO MIRACLE, AND I TOTALLY PRAY FOR ONE!

Well, day 2 of Promos, anyone?

Well, day 2 was all about chem! Wee! Thank God, I did study for chem! Yes, i did!! Ok lah.. I studied the notes Sheena passed to me on sat! Hehe... Cheat ttm :D Nia, not cheating at all :D LOL...

Well.. I was doing it.. I happy sia, I know how to do all the ques! And when i thought i gonna pwn the paper. My brain died, seriously! It was dead, the question were not being processed!! Then when I got out of the exam hall at the end. Everything got processed and it just struck me how I could have gotten the 20 marks!!

haizz.. Oh well, Hopefully, I do pass chem! Chem has always been unpredictable.. :/ Well, God is also unpredictable what.. So we never know :D Hehe...

Lets talk econ right now alirhgt? Hehe.. Well, I thought this was a A-able subject coz its humanities.. Weee... My humanities pretty zai lah, I think.. :/ LOL.. But I screwed up Case-study! read the question wrongly.. So GG ttm :( But should be able to pass lah.. :D

Then got math and chinese!! aiyoyo!! 2 3 hrs paper!! I was like save me :( Chinese is torture but I did my best, if I fail. I would just say its is expected. But if I pass, praise God :D

Well, for math I lost 47 marks but I thank God coz it might have been more... :D Haha.. Oh well.. So I have told you the events, like after every soccer match. you look at the stats.. So here is the situation...

I need 2 Hh2 and 1 H1 to promote. I should have Econs in the bag and that will mean 1 H2 :D Well, I need to hope my GP pass, and well either Chem or Math will have a H2 pass... Well, then the one that does not meet that mark. Hopefully, it is a H1 pass or bio pass then I am promtoed next year!! :D

Haha.. But now, it is a mini-break which sucks coz I am living in fear and tense up, living in suspense :/ And i am sick now!! Haiizzz.. But I am waiting for the verdict that currently, only the Judge knows :/

Well, One Last thing...

MY PROMOS RESULTS, I UPLIFT INTO GOD'S HAND. HE DECIDES, I ACCEPT. BUT LET ME SHARE WITH YOU ONE PRAYER I HAVE BEEN PRAYING DURING THIS PERIOD, I TOLD GOD, "GOD, I THINK I TOTALLY SCREWED UP LIAOZ LAH." AND THEN I PRAYED,

"LET NOT MY RESULTS SHOW HOW SMART I AM, BUT HOW GREAT MY GOD IS.." And after every paper, I would pray "GOD, I AM HAVE DONE MY BEST, IT ALL UP TO YOU NOW :D'

As I walk through the valley, you are there.

When I feel like giving up, you give me strength,

When I say "I can't", you tell me firmly, "I can"

When I am fearful, you are the bringer of peace.

Then I will declare, "how great thou are you, Oh Lord.."

2011-09-22T23:13:00.002+08:00

Hi all, I might not blog for so long cause I am mughing for PROMOS!

And well, I m getting stressed out! I need to pull this off! Its do or die!! So I need to believw my God is for me!

During CTs, I had an unbelieving heart! This Promos, the time has come to show that my God is great!! I need a believing heart!

"God, help me in my promos! Grant me wisdom to understand the concepts and that it will be retained in my brain! Help to make it through this promos! Only you can rescue! I know I am far behind my revision, and its like dejavu all again! But help me, Lord!"

Ok, bb guys! Back to mugging. Here's is a video to watch at I am AFK lah.. Haha!! My God will always be there ;)

Injuries

2011-08-12T22:22:00.006+08:00

Sigh!! Welcoe to the Injury post, where it is all about injuries!! -.-" LOL!!

Sigh, this post is about how frustrated I am always getting injured, and sometimes, people just don't get it!! I M INJURED ALL THE TIME!!! THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A TIME WHEN I AM NOT INJURED!!!!! Sigh...

Well, this could be a depressing post for me but then again, it could be an inspiring post for you if you thought your life is sad...

Well... Would you like to know my injury history?? It a pretty long story, perhaps I will tell all about it in person... But so far, taking away ALL MINOR injuries (The below pic is a example of minor)

Yupyup, that is minor.. Seriously!! It was just a bruise obtain during soccer matches., Sadly, this occurs almost every game!! I can accumulate up to 5 of these spread across 2 legs in 2 matches :/..

Now for MINOR bloody pics

Sigh.. But not so gruesome right.. :D

Okok.. Lets get away from the minor injuries...

I got a dented skull, my head bleed a lot of blood before and it needed stitches to stop the bleeding, I got a crack in my kneecap before, I got a fracture something on the foot which Idk how to type out :/ , torn ligament on my foot, a suspected torn ligaments in both my knees, a twisted nerve and the list goes on.. :/

Sigh.. Yes, if you get as injured as I do. You can be good friend!! Haha.. But well, here is what my post is about.. Is about people who think I like getting injured -.-

Sigh, really. I don't like getting injury! I don't see the point in getting injured and limping everywhere you go!! You know how inconvenient it is?! Sigh, I can joke about it, but it is not fun!! I bet if you get injury and have difficulty moving around, you will be very frustrated right? Imagine having to move about all the time like that? I feel like a crippled!! Sigh.. I really hate it, and it gets worse when people don't care?! Seriously!! I dont get injured on purpose?! Its because I play soccer!! What can i do if people keep kicking me!!?? Sigh.. And I doubt this nightmare will every stop. I keep wondering is scoring goals, getting the "glory", scoring he match winners and getting praises all worth it at times, when I have to go around a crippled?? I just wished people would spare a thought that I am seriously injured and by no means can I walk faster without hurting??

But be thankful still, shouldn't I? So Thank God, my injuries is not as serious as Cisse's, as you could see below!! I have YET to experienced such an injury. and let me make this clear here. If you think rugby is rougher than soccer, think again...

Haha!! :D

Why do I study?

2011-08-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hm.. Well.. This sunday, this question popped up into front of my face unexpectedly!!

"Why do I study for?"

Hm.. Honestly speaking.. this is a tough nuts to crack!

In my whole life, I have never been studying for myself. I have never bother studying for myself cause I don't really care about my academics... But really, why do we study?

In my primary school life, I did not study that is why I got 192 for my PSLE score.. Zai right, some lousy score..

So I went to Hong Kah, cause I noticed that their soccer was good! Hehe!! Yes, I chose soccer before academics.. So in my whole life, I have cared little for my academics.. But there were times when I did study.. And here is the reason and the only way that I will study.

I will study for others, or something but not myself.. Or unless I get forced too!! Haha!!

Hehe!! Well, in Hong Kah, I lived a nearly crazy lifestyle. Of school, soccer and sleep.. And Study was never taking a huge proportion of my study coz I never had any time!! Haha.. Perharps that is why I dont really put my slightly more free lifestyle into good use!! Hm...

Instead of studying, I whine, play and do all the not so important stuff... But perhaps its time to start studying for myself! I dont know. All of the above was just random ranting.. Here is the main course.

I don't see the importance of studying! We are all studying so hard for a piece of paper that has no eternal value. Really is it worth it? I rather enjoy but its life. Everyone looks at your achievements, at your grades and most of them will judge you from that. Why do we study so hard!! Everyone says, "Say hard, so that God's glory be revealed... But it is really true?? I don't really know anymore... Non-christains also score well. So really, what is difference???!!

I know its wrong to think that way.. Studying is suppose to benefit my future.. But really, do I really bother -.-" LOL.. If I did, I would be a mugger now sio!! Haha!! And then I won't have so many people making me study :/ Haha!!

So really, why should I study!! Sigh... For a better future and all they say. But I say, I study just because I study... So may God help me study for a purpose. Because I really can't find any!!

God, help me to study for a reason, for a purpose! I find this lifestyle dumb! I don't see the use of it!! But oh God, you have a plan and may you open my eyes to see that!!

P.S This is a super delayed post which should have been published on the 4th of July!! LOL!!

My Birthday Wish

2011-07-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

Haha..

Today Matthew asked me about my Birthday wish rather indirectly.... And well, I ain't going to state it...

But the thought of my birthday wish is like hm.. Honestly, I got a wish. Everyone does.. When I was asked to make a wish yesterday, the first thing that came into my mind was ______ .

Well, I wont stated my wish, and I doubt many people can help make it become reality.

My wish is not of materialistic desire. Nono... I don't want a soccer ball or a PSP or a new PS3 game. Or new soccer boots, or being the national champion. These are all secondary and really secondary.

Well, some of you won't be able to guess it. Because the thing I desire most, I have never really said it before, never told anyone except God. You guys can make a wild guess? But I can give you 3 tries and you still won't guess it.

So for fun joy and laughter, try and fill in the blanks:

MY GREATEST WISH IS TO _____ ______ ______ ______ ______ .

HAVE FUN GUESSING! Hehe!! But no prizes for guessing correctly :D

Happy Birthday to Myself

2011-07-08T22:04:00.003+08:00

Oh well.. Happy Birthday to myself?

Well, I realize how pathetic this day is -.-

Frankly speaking, today does not feel like my birthday at all.. Spending my birthday enduring a tough fitness training session, and attending school really sucks. Capped off with the fact that I got 29/100 for Chinese is not really a good day for me..

Well, I have a few reason to state why:

Firstly, no one sang me the birthday song..
Secondly, there is no cake.
Thirdly, no candles.. and its a pretty lonely celebration..

But let not get all emo over this. Though, this is huge evidence that I am as good as negligible, but hey I am the apple of god's eyes. I shall be satisfied with that..

And I ain't going to believe I am negligible coz perhaps my friends are all too busy bah.. Always give the benefit of doubt what... That helps preserve unity!! Haha... Ir maybe I am just too busy but I usually never am. I can always pon sch, right?

But really, if your birthday is bad, reading this should really help cheer you up.. Haha..

Oh well, so this is the 3rd birthday in a row, that my birthday is so low key but what can I do? Stuck in my room, and celebrate it myself? Sounds like the wisest choice..

So happy 17th birthday for me? Well, I feel like 70 years old, not 17.. Really, my body is just screwed up after all the injuries I have sustained since primary school.. Beat my injury history too, if you can :P Haha!!

But then again. I can be considered 16 since it feels like my birthday really never arrived.. Or perhaps, I am 14? LOL.. Ever since, I became so involved in soccer. My birthdays feel like they never existed...

But here is the gest of the post. When you are feeling down, or thinking FML.. Read this post.. And then I believe it will make you feel better..

Haha.. Somewhat encouraging!! LOL.. Okok, need to rest for training again tmr.. after having it on thursdays and friday -.-

JJ Leadership Camp

2011-07-08T16:13:00.001+08:00

Hi people, the JJ leadership Camp was a blast! Learnt much, enjoyed much but lacked sleep :( Overall, I would say I had a great time!! Hehe!!

Day 1: (June 1)

Honestly, I was bored, really bored on the first day. So bored that I was totally lethargic!! Oh man... In my opinion, the team-building games were not very fun at all, and maybe my "sianzzz" mindset had a bit to do with that. We also took the DISC personality test, which I thought last time liaoz!! So I was bored to death by that again :( Oh well, day 1 passed in a blink of an eye!! Alright, thats was a lie, but it was a wish and at least it did pass!! Ahaha!!

DISC Workshop

A Project during the DISC Workshop

Day 2: (June 2)

This day was really very tiring.. Bare with my whining alright. Ahaha.. Bored, complain, tiring, complain! Haha!! We had laser tag, expedition and a night hike all in the same day!! Wow! It was action-packed!! But lets start things slowly with laser tag.

Hm.. What to say about laser tag?? Hm.. Oh yes!! If Singapore ever gets into a war, the first thing you should is to phone my family up and tell them to prepare the administration for my funeral! Like I am not joking!! I died in every laser tag battle!! -.-"

Another thing I learnt from Laser Tag is my new Facebook D.P quote "Leave No Man Behind"!! I learnt this becoz I died due to my friends pang sei me in battle lah!! -.- We were suppose to be the ambush team, but things got totally wrong when they spotted us, so we ran... Ran in a direction to mis-direct them from our territory. The reason why we never stood our ground and fought was becoz we were outnumber 1:8!! But it became 1 vs all, when Nikolas and Wei Xiang somehow disappeared!! -.- Haha!!

Though I died, and well I will most likely die again in a armed battle because I will fight till I die, I enjoyed playing laser tag!! Hehe!! :D The next programme was the 7 hour long expedition whch started from 11 am to 6 pm!! Wow!! I was so tiring!! But it was good training for my shopping spree that I plan to have after my CTs :D Hehe!!

Soon I can say, shopping for hours is nothing!! Hehe!! :D Well, some pictures to better elaborate??

Hehe!! The next programme was night hike that day. It was crazy! We were so tired le, then still got a night hike!! Oh well, Night hike to me was really not a new experience. I have gone on night hike all alone and it was not scary!! Reason, My God is Bigger!!

But this time, there was a new element this time round, we had to go in pairs. Honestly, if we go in pairs, then we wont be afraid?! what is the point of night hike sia?? Interestingly, my group decided to pair up the girls and guys together so if the girl scare like blur sotong, at least still got the guy!

LOL.. So off to the night hike. LOL.. Epic moments, we chat like what sia!! LOL.. It was fun lah, not because I was with a girl walking in the jungle/ forest or a place with many trees.. That is secondary, the primary reason is simply because I got to lie down on a empty field and watch the night sky at the end of the whole hike!! Wee.. though it was a starless night but I wanna go watch the night sky somenight!! My usual place just got demolished!! I don't know why, but I like doing it. Maybe Hong Xia passed interests to me?? Hm... Oh well..

But honestly, isn't the night sky something so wonderful to watch? A painting painted by God with careful precaution? Talking about night skies, isn't the evening sky nice too? Or the sky nice? Watching the clouds move by is relaxing!! :D

Oppps.. We kinda moved from the topic. But I don't have pictures to show... Oh well... *skip*

Day 3: (June 3)

Hm.. What did we do today? Oh yes!! DRAGON BOATING!! I will not forget since its side-effects are still affecting me!!! Oh man, my skin peeled!! Reason, simple, I got sunburned!! Oh sigh....

Well, I wished I oculd do dragonboating with people who have done it before... or are experienced... So that perhaps I would be in a winning team!! Haha.. Nah.. Every experience is different, right? I experienced how to row without eyes since the water was attracted to my eyes -.- Haha!!

So some pics?

Then after that, we had our campfire!!! Haha.. My group did the noose, parody!! :D LOL. Some pictures bah.. But it was a moving campfire for some of us.. And if you attend the camp, you will have known why...

Well... That is pretty much it and wow! This is one super delayed post :/

Reflection on Love Beyond

2011-07-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

This is going to be hard to write, "Reflection on Love Beyond"...

Well, I was part of the project, "The Greatest of these is Love".. And how wrong was I when I thought it would be the the least time consuming project!! Alamak!!! A wrong move sia!! And wow! Was I stun at the work I needed to complete in a short span of time!!

Games I/C is no easy task. Like what the bleah!

Well, honestly. I have gained much from the planning and exacution of the games!! But not so much from looking after the kids...

It was pretty new experience working with a fellow D.I guy.. It was challenging cause when I decide to use my D.I self, we tend to do things our own way... And we tend to tank or put the weight of thw whole worlds on our shoulders.. Hm.. But really thank God for Eugene!! Cause this lead-up needed the D.Is to be in charge!! Cause I was in Camp, for te lead-up and well.. Planning was pretty difficult coz there was no power socket at the camp site and I am using an Iphone!! Alamak.. So Eugene was tanking most of the the planning then.. So a big thanks to gene then..

However, just 3-4 days before the camp started!! Wholesale changes to the games sia!! Alamak!! New experience working with Hui Ling!! Wow! Never did I expect wholesale changes! Wah!! So the games finally not apprpved then we chiong planning again lah!! Wah, so at least I did not slack through the process!!

And the process of changing the games to fit a extremely difficult theme was super stress!! Wah sei!! Especially in such a short span of time!!! And not when you also got a CIP project too!! Oh mine!! It was one not fun time sia!!

Then I had my turn to stat tanking cause Eugene was pretty busy during the camp with external activities.. And wow!! I decided to tank
the preparation!! But soon Edward got me to involve the alumni and D.I people.. Oh well.. I believe the kids had fun playing the games!! Hehehe :D

Oh well, so here is my reflection on the planning process: I NEED TO LEARN NOT TO ALWAYS TANK!! GOTTA INVOLVE PEOPLE!!!!

Hm.. Now the kids part.. Ouch!! I feel so old!! Well, the kids were really hyper-active!! It been a long time since I could match that hype!! Wow!! What can I say?? But thank God my group did not have a lot of people.. So need to take care of less kidos!! :) But never did I know I would get pwn by them!! Walao!! I like get pwn in every children camp I attend or help out ah? I did not know the girls in my group will also bully me :(

Okok.. Lets give an example of what I did. Cause my name ain't really easy to remember (malay name is easier lah), I gave them a nickname to call me, which is, "Ah Seng" lah... Then the girls decided to call me "Ah Beng" -.-!! Oh come on! In what way other than the way I walk to I look like one!! -.- then they knock my head somemore! Wahsei! I want complain!! But they plYing around nia.. Sigh, AT MY EXPENSE SIA!! Oh well.. The boys like super hyper and are like wanderers!! Find one, two disappear!! I was exhausted!! But sadly, I was not really with my kids on the first day due to the preparation of the games and the second day morning, I had school :(

Wow, so the kids were really like demons in disguise. Prepared to devour you at any opportunity!! Ohno!! Hahaha.. And did I mention I hurted my waist and back in the camp!! Sigh.. Really like so old now :/ Haha!!

But like get down to the real deal. My reflection on the kids:

"Wow, looking at the kids.. How the have so much energy, of course I feel old. I feel like I have really grown. It was like a journey back into time.. Looking at me back then, then looking at the present me.. Wow, the huge change.. In character, in habits, in many things...

In the day, they are demons, but I keept thinking... And since I did not sleep at night, but watched them sleep.. I realize how much we humans want attention.. We all seek them.. The kids run around looking for them.. And though it draining, I can't fault them..

I also realize how trusting they are... Telling me about their families, their lives.. How they will believe everything you say, or most of the stuff cause usually I crap around... And how I wished I could be equally trusting. I realize that I slowly began to stop trusting people, because of the times they fail me, the times they hurted me... All those unpleasant moments, they made me start to lose trust... How we as individual need to break away from those unpalatable moments, and begin trusting.... In our God, and people...

So two things to learn... :) And the fact that I am old now :(

Common Test

2011-06-29T22:01:00.005+08:00

Oh sigh... I am so disappointed...

My Common Test have ended!! Yes, so quickly!! It just lasted 3 days, but that is not what I am bitterly disappointed in how I did it though it is a major disappointment.. *Contradiction, yeah? Wait*

It lasted 3 days because:

Monday was Chinese and Math paper!! Oh sigh!! Chinese was a pretty sad paper.. I failed to complete it and I did not even do the first question because I did not know how to!!?? :( But hopefully, I will pass my Maths and I did study for math!! :(

On Tuesday, it got worse. I had econs and biology!! Well, I hope I can pass it!! I did not manage to finish the whole paper!! :/ But I did study for it!! However, I can't say the same for biology!! I did not touch biology at all for the whole holidays!! So I wrote pure crap for it!! Can imagine Hui Wen nagging at me liaoz!! Ahaha!! But really, a U seems like the only possibility.. God, please intervene!! I really need divine intervention!!

On Wednesday, this is when the CTs can make me cry! Sigh.. Chemistry!! Ohno!! Another subject I did not touch at all in the whole holidays!! and wow!! I think I am a goner!! :(

Lets talk about the less serious matter, like my highly possible results:

GP: S?? (God help me!)

Chinese : U?? (God, help me!)

Biology: U?? (God, help me!)

Chemistry: U?? (God, help me!)

Maths: D/E?? (God, I believe I can get better)

Econs: D/E?? (God is stronger, believe!!)

Oh well!! God, please help me!! Please really help me!!

Sigh.. Looking back at CTs.. I realize how weak my faith in Christ in. (Yes, I am showing you how vulnerable I am!!)

I kept saying I am screwed, I cant do it! I am lousy and such!! And How I hate this!! I feel bitterly disappoint in myself!! Yes, I always knew that I lacked self-confidence. I have never believe I was good in anything before, that includes soccer! I never believed I deserved to play first team football for Hong Kah in Sec 2! I never believe I was good enough... *shocked aren't you?* But it is not about how I feel like I am worthless (literally), but how I behaved like as if my god was small God. How I made him look like a DOG rather than a GOD! ARGH!! I am bitterly disappointed in myself!!

Isn't my God greater?

- Our God by Christ Tomlin

Isn't my God so great, than he is indescribable that he is so great!!

- Indescribable and How Great is our God by Chris Tomlin and Hillsong respectively.

Isn't our God, God.. the one who rose from the grave? The one who created the Earth? The one who made me in his image?

ARGH!! I can't take this!! I can't take how weak my faith showed to be! Thus, of course I plan to do something about it! Faith is needed in order to please God. So help!!

I have also been reflecting on Pastor Den Kuan words (hope, I spell correctly).. I know and I believe are two different words!! And how I realize they indeed are..

I realise how much I know the bible but how I don't really believe the bible!! Oh God, I want to believe!! I realize how I failed to believe that my God would be there for me, I did not believe it. I felt like i was fighting my battle alone.. Always alone.. I failed to see my lack of belief!! I want to start believing! I want to start believing! I just wanna believe, oh lord!! I want!! I now think I really need my R&R time to myself!! I need to rethink and refocus!! My head has been turned, my heart in a different place... I wanna come back to the heart of worship...

"Oh God, forgive me for my lack of faith, for my lack of belief in you. Despite how others encouraged me, i failed to heed their words... I failed to believe that you were there for me. and right now, I feel disgusted with myself.... Father, my lack of belief in you needs to be rectified. God, I pray that you help me in my CTs. They are no more within my control. I uplift into your hands. You are God, you don't have to prove it to me. I don't need signs and wonder. I just need you back in my life. I just need you to be there for me.. I just need you, I just want you... I pray that I will pass all of them. Faith like a muster seed was all that was enough. Father, I pray you search my heart and will be able to find that faith within me. I pray that I will pass!! ALL OF THEM!! ALL!! LET NONE BE AN EXCEPTION!! Oh GOD!!! You are GOD!! I pray more importantly, that my faith abound within this weak mind and self.. Help me oh Lord.....

Search my heart, heal the wound, destroy the strongholds and tear down the walls! Amen!"

Happy Father's Day

2011-06-19T23:48:00.009+08:00

I know my dad won't read this but ,"Happy Papa Day!!"

Erm.. Well, today is father's day!! But sadly, my family did not celebrate it together!! *sigh* Feels kinda bad about it..

Oh well!! And I did not do anything for my dad yet!! Double the feel bad feeling!! Oh sigh!! But I don't know what to do!! I am at lost of words/ideas!! I m a guy, and I am a epic fail at doing things like that. I don't really know how to express myself well!! Sigh.. Thats is why I am always an epic fail :/

Yet I love my dad!! Without him, I would be here! I wont have met the people I have met, played the beautiful game, been good at what I am good at (though sometimes, its feels like I am good at nothing) and won some medals and experienced some wonderful moments...

Hm.. Because I have extreme good memory! I can remember many things me and my dad did together before. I bet I can remember something about you if you asked me! Haha!!

Ok.. Let me bring you back into time.. About 10 years ago, actually 9 years I think, tgere was a large field near our house (if you been to my current house, there is a state land. Its that field) and during that time, mini goalposts were placed there. So of course this soccer boy jio his dad out to play with him!! And my dad oblieged!! Woohoo!! And I pwned him!! Oh man!! It wasn't even a close fight!! But I did not score many goals. Yet somehow, I think my dad could play soccer averagely! Cause if not, I think I am not born in this family! It wont make sense! Who and how did I inherit my soccer skills!!!!!!!!

Oh well, memories will stay as memories... But I know my dad loves me!! Though at times, I am too blind to see it and such but oh well... I still love him and wonder how I inherited my soccer skills from? Hm... Hahaha!!

Happy Papa's Day, Papa!!

Hugs

2011-06-16T21:00:00.006+08:00

I would have titled this, 'Random Hugs" but you can't see the title. :P

Was reading the post on the ODJ and it was talking about "The touch"... About how at times, we are afraid to touch certain types of people. And interestingly, it sparked some thoughts within me.. I actually thought about the fact that I feel awkward hugging people!! LOL.. Talking about touch!! LOL.. Touch Rugby = Showdown 3!! Woohoo!!

Ok, getting back to the topic.... I don't know why I always feel awkward giving out hugs or receiving one... It is not that I have never received one, but it just awkward!! LOL.. Okok, this post is not about how I feel about hugs. I think they are necessary at times, maybe I need to learn how to accept them, and dish them out at times... Hm... And preharps at times, I will need them.

So lets get to the main course, shall we?

Reading that post, and thinking of hugs. Oh man!! I remember the first time I got a hug!! LOL.. I don't remember my parents hugging me before. Nor do I celebrate my goals with hugs!! LOL.. I am blogging my epic experience of a hug... And that was when I was in lower secondary? Haha...

It was during the AKLTG camp lah, then that time I had a female facilitator. LOL.. Funny bunny... This camp is just funny, they will keep your belongings for you de!! Or more or so, they don't want us to get distracted lah.. LOL.. So being the good boy I am, I let them keep my handphone and wallet lah.. Not knowing the consequences of doing it if you have my facilitator... :S

LOL.. At the end of the day, everyone had to hugged her to get back our belongings and maybe because it was the last day of camp!! OMG!! I had to hugged her ot get back my belonging!! Walao.. My heart pain sia!! Totally... I was the most reluctant person to hug her, but of course I had to do it in order to get back my phone. Alamak.. LOL

Well, I shall not comment on this with my bias-ness for this part. Well, I think the hug was just pure awkward to me.. I felt really awkward and was like holding back... But slowly, I began to open up. It was like, I finally put open up my arms, rather than just stand there. I got to realize that hugs are something nice, cause I somehow enjoyed being hugged. Okay, weird moment. Totally contradicting myself. But its true, I have a feeling it was my first hug cause I have don't think I have ran into my parents arms before, but I enjoyed it. That feeling of being loved, being shown love, of being cared for, of feeling worth something, or that feeling that you mean something to someone. But still, I am a guy. I don't know how to express oneself well... *Bleah*

Random post sia, all sparked from a ODJ post to my epic memories.. Oh well... *Hugs*

2011-06-12T21:47:00.001+08:00

One moment, everything seems so rosy. The next moment, everything disappears in a blink of an eye....

Nowadays, I am in a lot of pain. I never knew lying down on the cold, hard floor would worsen the condition of my back. My knees also hurt... :(

Sigh.. And after taking the Pastor Raymond survey. I never knew how badly injured I am.. Bleah..

Well, like me explain. My back pain was caused by an accident in "The Greatest of These is Love" camp.. Won't say how :/ and wolf-pile was by no means helping :/

The Knees are an old injury that has returned to haunt me and threatening to destroy what I deem the only thing I am good in - Soccer.

The headache was due to the match against VJC... Well, i tackled a guy, he fell over me.. Sadly, his studs (the spikes on the boots) landed on my head. Near the ear of my head, after that, I did tio headaches.. Though, thankfully, it ain't really happening again :D

Well, I realize I have not explained why I wrote the first line in this post. Oh well, its for me to know, for you to find out..

Holidays? My foot lah!!

2011-06-06T22:25:00.005+08:00

Walao!! This June holiday is really crappy!! I need to mug for CTs, attend lots of camps and soccer training!! Argh!!

The worst part is this!! Everything is being squeezed!! So super packed! Everything is colliding, and I can't slack off in the leadup to the BB/GB/CIA camp!! Then I also can't slack in my academics and soccer trainings!! Sigh... Really stressed up, I have skipped a lot of trainings le, and I am suppose to be a leader. Some kind of leader I am sia.. -.- Sigh.. Pretty stressed up... :(

Oh well, but lets ont take away the fact that the JJ leadership camp was pretty fun!! HAha!! Shall blog about it in another post bah!! :D

Hm.... Actually, I am just whining!! LOL... But I am getting worried that becoz I am so busy, I will flunk my CTs coz not enough time mug!! :(

The KL Soccer Trip with JJC

2011-04-27T12:58:00.008+08:00

Hi, people. Sry this is kinda late... But just enjoy :D I am too lazy to add photos.. :(

Day 1:
Nothing much actually. We took a very long coach ride to KL!! Interestingly, it made us very hungry! Haha!! For dinner, we took 4 bowls of rice!! And also the leftovers from other tables :/ hahaha!! Not leftover from strangers table hor! From the people in JJC other CCAs de :/ hahaha!!

Day 2:
Walao! Need wake up at 6 lor!! Sianzz! Then had 2 games!! One in the morning, the other at 5pm... The first game was against Tarc College! Lol! Random sio. The field was worse than expected but I still scored!! Hehe!! But i got to admit, that I am far from my best!! In the end, we won 2-1 but they weren't that good so we got to improve!!

The 5pm match.. Hm.. It reminded me of Hong kah!! Honestly, I miss Hong Kah Soccer!! :( I have adapted so much to the Hong Kah more technical style (pass & move) that it feels weird playing the JJC style (pump the ball).. Well, we played against Selangor PKNS (malaysian league team) and boy, did they play like Hong Kah!! The pass & move, the switching, the low crosses! The technical style! Oh how I missed it!

The game started off rather well for me.. 1st minute, I got the ball, dribble pass one and then another and then my left foot got step on :/ ouch!! Hahaha! But I proved my skills so :D hehe.. Then after that, continued the match lah.. But I did not score in this match :( i had a glorious chance but the curl was too much :( Somehow, as the match contined, I proved able to almost match them in terms of technique, & speed. However, they showed me one thing to improve. I need more aggression!!

Most epic thing that happen that day?? Germaine created tom yam chin chow!! Haha!! Recommended if you want to go to the toilet! Haha!! And this! As I was studying bio, i fell asleep without knowing it!! This was how tired I was :/

Day 3:
Fail day! Or at least the day I got myself injured.. :/ oh well, interestingly, it was my teammate that accidentally injured me -.- And I did not manage to score a goal :( sigh! My ankle feels weak :( The final score: JJC (6) vs PBNS (5).... In the evening, we had something like a party. We went to Time Square to buy the stuff and makan Keeny Rogers for dinner. Lol! Time Square got a huge playground sia!! The roller coaster is huge, the mall is like 3 times the size of Vivo City sia.. What the bleah..then after that, we went back to the hotel and waited till 10pm to start partying!! Lol!! But during the waiting time, here is the fun. Zhi yi, came to our room and atarted prank calling people from soccer!! Ahaha!! Then to hear their shocked voices was super epic! Lol!! Haha!! Then we went to Wei Jian's room.. Go watch tv, play te laptop and blab blah.. Lol!! After that, I went back to sleep! But I did not plan to sleep!! I was waiting for my instant noodles to cook, but fell asleep waiting -.-!! Haha!! So that almost all about day 3.

Day 4:
We had gym trainin again!! Then we had some shoppin and it was home sweet home Singapore!! Yupyup :D

Sports Day in JJC 2011

2011-03-24T23:26:00.005+08:00

Thank God!! Praise him!!

Today, was my first experience of a JJC sports meet! And boy, was it a new experience. This was the first time I was going to run in a Sports day since primary 5!! :/

Yes!! Believe it or not, its the truth...

Well, things started off like a though I would be slacking on the actual Sports Day.. However, things took an platable turn of events...

On thursday night, when I was packing my bag for KL, I got a call telling me that i was going to run! Wasei!! I was stunned! But excited about running infront of the whole school!! Hehe!!

So I run lah.. I know, intro very boring so yalah, I ran :/ hehe!! Ok.. I ran 4x100m relay! Not my first time but still! I enjoyed it!! It felt great as I ran! I might not be the fastest, that is why I did not take part in the individual 100m event despite my timing being 12.3 sec, but as I ran! I know God was helping me!

I got to admit that before the race, i was very nervous!! Very very nervous!! If u see the whole school watching you, people cheering for u! So much pressure sia!! But like I said, God helped me as I ran! And as I watch my team getting 3rd for the event, all I could do was smile and look up to the heavens!!

Thank you, God for giving me my 3rd medal in a track event! Thank you...

So next year! I want a bigger medal haul!! Sports day might be the only chance, since soccer in JJC is unlikely to achieve anything :( so yeah! Can't wait!!

2011-02-20T20:37:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, I decided to update bah... But it will be a short post.

I believe many know that I have entered JJC.. :( *Soccer not power, more powder then power.. :(* And I am like what the bleah. Why so small de?? :( LOL..

So moral is actually, I am still adapting to this new environment. But even if I like it or not, God has placed me here!! So I will make the best use of it bah. But JC life is not SLACK! :(

I am Free

2010-12-30T15:37:00.000+08:00

Lefa intro me the song de... enjoy :D

Amazed

2010-11-30T22:30:00.003+08:00

Hi ppl, I think it is time to type a few words... So here is a rather nice song.. I would have loved to play this song in the Inside Out camp. However, I might be too late le. So enjoy?? Okie?? :D

Oh lord, I am amazed. I am so amazed by our ways. Our ways are higher, and so interesting... I get a weird disease that I supposed to have the vaccine so that I would rest at home. Lord, I am amazed. But not so with chicky.. :D

Part 2. Alright. I think God is telling me to enjoy his presence. TO see how amazing he is. Maybe you should too?? I was just listen to my itunes...Then it was on shuffle. However, everything I listened to was talking about how amazing God is...So

O'levels Experience..

2010-11-15T21:42:00.003+08:00

Wee...... O'levels are finished!! (Nic is mostly likely going to play THE song)

Well, Here is the update on it alright...

Week 1:

One word sums it all. STRESS!! ah!!! ALAMAK!! STRESS SIO, I tell you!!

I had English as the first papper. For my prelims, my English was the worse subject!! :( Then I go take over!! Sigh!! Depressing.. I read the question wrongly. So my English, supposingly free fall. I have no idea if English gone, all gone. HOWEVER, I HAD GOD RECEDING IN ME!! I HAVE A GOD THAT IS IN CONTROL. EVEN IF I SUPER LOUSY (which I am) I WILL TRUST IN HIM!! :D

Then Maths was again depressing.. I was stressing myself out lah!! Keep thinking competing with whole of Spore!! Then you in Hong Kah!! Depressing sio!! I think I did my best. Nah, I did not... But it is again not in my hands.. 20% you 80% God!! So I shall not be depressed!! Coz I wanna enjoy, not fret over my results...

Aiya.. Lets get to the point... I flunked my WHOLE O'levels!! I was sick while doing my Humanities which is my best subject so I flunked it!! But God is in control... I can get 51 points. I think I can but God won't allow such a thing to happen. He loves me, he will be there for me even when I fail him... He is in control of my marks. I shall not fear.

O'levels was a pain in the neck. I never wanted to study, and disaster struck the moment Os started.. My grandmother was admitted into hospital and I did not know till my parents brought me there.. Then she died in that same week. So O'levels, I hate you. I gave up on O'levels. I don't care.. I was grieving even though I was not close to my grandmother. I felt bad not being able to communicate with her. I never tried to learn chinese... and I feel bad.. I don't know whether she even knew she had a grandson that has achieved so much... Nor do I think she knows about this game called soccer.. I felt bad, and I still do.. But it is over.... I shall not weep, but turn and see that there is a huge harvest still out there...

BTW, Os are over but I am lazy to blog le.. Cya :D

Fall in this Place..

2010-11-11T17:54:00.002+08:00

Hi dudes.. Hope you like this song... Coz now since my O'levels are over and some of you all are in the holiday mood. This means we got more time on our hands so why not seek God with it rather than wasting it all away...??

I was browsing Youtube, coz my mp3 limited ah.. So youtube does the job... Then I banged head first into this song (If you can"t imagine the banging, just imagine the guy who slashed Darren Ng, then jumped into the pool HEAD FIRST just to escape the police... Ya.. Something like that, nah.. I think that guy more pro..)

Enjoy :D

Prelims.. The Trial of Trust and Faith!!

2010-09-21T20:20:00.003+08:00

Hi, I am going to blog this on a serious note coz these few weeks have been wreck for me....

Hm.. The prelims made me fight to not sleep!! It caused me to be over-stressed man!! Well, it has been a battle of emotions, of stress, of tired-ness, of fatigue, of faith and of trust for me sio... Let me elaborate..

Well, the lead-up to the Prelims have been really tough on me.. Firstly, I hate to study!! Secondly, the prelims was the exam my parents would use to see if i deserve my Iphone4.. Oh man!! :( Then this was the first exam I actually bothered to study in the build-up instead of last-min then go and study.. Aiyo. Usually I will study study the day before.. but this time I used my holidays to study!! Wow!! LOL.. But it was not easy studying.. honestly! I was affected my many things... Well, many mishaps and sad events....During the lead-up, my grandmother got admitted into hospital!! I was upset lah.. And you should and will know how I felt if you read the previous few posts.. I was affected, I could not concentrate on my studies!! I was sadden, and unable to concentrate sio.. And so I was thought to fight with my emotional to study hard for my Prelims!!

Then during the Prelims, I needed to fight a fight against fatigue!! Well, I have been staying up rather later these few days. I feel unprepared and since I am taking this exam seriously for once!! I stayed up super late into the night just to mug!!! I have stayed till 2 just to mug and it took its toil on me by the next week... which is week 2. I actually slept in my maths paper!! OMG!! I was really very tired since I was not used to sleeping so late!! And well, by sleeping so late despite revising so many times. I actually showed that i lacked faith or lack trust in God... Studying is never enough.. That is wat i have learnt..

Then half-way through my prelims. My mum had a relapse after 22 years. I was afraid! my mum had fits again and the scene I witnessed first hand was scary, Very frightening.. See her hollow eyes, tears rowing down her eyes. Her pale face, and that fact that she did not even know who I was after the thing was very frightening... Only when you have lost something or almost lost something, will you treasure it more and I do agree with this statement.. Well, it has taught me not to rely so much on my mum no more.. I need to take up more responsibilities in the house and to not over-work my mum coz I believe she has been over-worked.. Working, coming home to cook and do all the chores. We should not our part now..

I feel lazy to blog longer, but I have been having a hard time with my mum having her relapse, my grandmother got admitted into hospital (I think she will be discharge soon, but her kidney is getting worse) and I have been very tired these past weeks!! Fatigue and tired-ness does have its side-effect!! I hate exam, they make me stress... And well, another thing is that doing our QT at 2am is a bad idea! Coz you are so tired!! I plan to go back to doing it at 10 now :D

lol... :D

Prelims - Week 1

2010-09-16T22:29:00.003+08:00

Hey dudes, I doubt I will be blogging a long post but here are some stories, very interesting short short stories about God's faithfulness and my bad luck. :( Hahah...

E-Maths miracle:

Well, my first two papers were English Paper 1 and E-Maths paper 2. Haha.. But i will just talk about the E-Maths paper coz something amazing happened. LOL.. I was doing my SD question. So SD means you go use the calculator lah. Or at least that how I would do it. Then so I go press the values in SD mode. However my calculator cocked up!! Big time!! Everytime I press store the values, it blanks out!! Then I also blank out lah!! I thought I GG... I tried 3 times, all fail!! my calculator pang sei me during exam!! Imba nia!! Then thank God!! siddenly, my calculator revived itself!! It started working again!! Woohoo!!! Then I happy lah.. Wow.. I just got 75/100 for that paper!! Coz I see my marks le!! But Prelims ain't over!! Ahah.. Thank God... O Praise him!! Hehe.. However, my calculator spoiled straight after the exams!! But who cares!! I bought another one le.

SS super suay-ness

OMG!! Was the reaction when i saw the paper!! I was like wat the bleah.. I think I kinda flunk the paper le coz I did not know how to write for my essay because all the chapter I did not study for, come out!! Oh mine!! I studied 5/8 chapter leh!! If you studied 5/8 chapters.. you would expect that one chapter that you studied for would come out right? I did, but the paper did not!! Alamak!! Flunk le.. :( This is going to be bad, my strongest subject just went down the drain.. sigh.. LOL... Nvm, prelims nia is the mindset :D then if Os, it will be just Os NIA!.. :D

History uphill task, hopeful

LOL.. I had no mood to study history actually. I am still unable to believe I was so suay!! :( LOL.. I will need about 40+/50 marks for my history le.. And well, I did not really study the whole book. I just studied 2/7 chapters and took the exam.. Well, at least I can do so it should be better than my SS paper but I need 40+ marks!! God help me!! LOL.. I wrote 9.5 pages long for the whole exam! :D Hopeful they are all not crap though. then can get a lot of marks!! :D God, you are in control. May your will be done, not mine... Have your way

Maths Double kill!!

LOL.. This is actually week 2 le, but nvm.. LOL... Well, I was mugging pretty late last night coz I needed to clock up and make up for the hours lost in the hospital on Sun. So I mugged till my father turned off all the lights so that I can't see and continue mugging then I will be forced to sleep. LOL.. Maybe I should have slept earlier coz during the E-Maths paper 1, which i will need to obtain 60/80 to get a A1, I slept.. :x Yes, I fell asleep doing the paper! I was like super tired!! I think it was due to all the fatigue accumulated in the past weeks. Aiyo... So I hope for the bet le lor.. LOL.. then A-Maths was killer.. :( There goes my targets... They ain't going to be met.. :( LOL.. But hey, prelims are coming to an end soon...

LOL... I better go and mug now.. BB :D

God!! Let them be saved!!!

2010-09-10T12:36:00.007+08:00

Sigh.... I have got no mood to study le....

Well, I just received a call from my mother saying that maybe we would have to go down to SGH, because my grandmother... Idk what lah. But my mum said my grandmother may not have long le. She said she is dying le.. And I am like thinking to myself. I feel like a unfilial grandson!! I have been MIA from my grandmother's house for a very long time!! And I feel bad, I might not be able to make it up and time is running short... But one thing I ask, is that she would accept God!!!

BECAUSE HELL WAS NOT MADE FOR GOD CREATURE TO BE TORTURED FOR ETERNITY!! FOR ETERNITY LEH!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT ETERNITY MEANS?? IT MEANS FOREVER LEH!! I CAN"T IMAGINE THAT!! I DO NOT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO MY GRANDMOTHER OR ANYONE!! AND I DO NOT WANT TO SEE PEOPLE SUFFER AND BURN IN HELL!!!

So I got no mood to study lah... Because I know how hell is like, a small insight yet it is crazy!! The torture, the pain, the burning, the gashes of teeth, the screams of help!! The suffering!! For eternity!! ARGH!!! Imagine it in full!! Ouch cant even describe the horror!!

So..

"God!! I know you are in control!! I pray for the salvation of my grandmother, my dad, my friends and for each and every single of your creation!! Father!! Abba Father!! I prayer for the salvation of my grandmother!! I pray that she will come to know you!! I pray that she will accept you as your Lord and Saviour!! I pray that you save her!! That she will not go to hell!! I pray that she will see that she was made to worship you!! Father!! SAVE HER!!! SAVE HER!! SAVE HER!! I prayer this in the name of Jesus!! The son of man and son of God!! Amen!!"

Well, I can't study yet prelims are around the corner!! Help me O'lord!! I know that I can flack my prelims lah, I don't care!! All I want is for God creation to inherit salvation!!

Praise Him wherever we are

2010-09-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

LOL.. This video is a joke.. Or I was laughing when I watched it but I admire it!!

When I first read the description, I was laughing le... It said,

PLEASE READ:
A guy walking the streets of New York just can't stop himself from praising in the streets!

LOL... I was like laughing lah.. You see the video. It is a music video, not for laughs. But imagine yourself singing praises to God in the mainland of Singapore. Orchard?? Marina Bay?? Imagine it?? Standing in the middle of the road, singing praises, worship. Kneeling down, raising up holy hands!! Wow!! I admire such courage, and how I wish I would be like that too.. Heck care what people think, only caring about what God thinks. Wow!! I want to also like him sio... "O Praise him!!" Everywhere we are, everywhere we go, everywhere we might be. Praise him. We were made to worship!! And that means everywhere.. I dream that one day, the whole of Singpaore will start praising God in the streets. Then it will be so cool. Imagine it... Wow..

Funny Moments, and Faces :D

2010-09-09T18:26:00.003+08:00

LOL.. I was thinking.. Lets have a laugh.. Hehe.. These pictures can be found on FB but hey, must show as many people as possible!! :D Hehe..

Here are some Pictures of the Camping trip :D It was a blast, even with the lost of my wallet... :D

Rejoiced in my lost!!

2010-09-08T10:19:00.003+08:00

Erm... Hi dudes... I don't know why but I am like spamming videos on my blog ah.. :( Haha.. But those videos are nice what, I think..

Well, I am here to blog about my lost wallet. Not asking anyone to return to me if they have it. and what are the chances that the person who took it would read this?? I am blogging about it not because I am still feeling down and so, but sure I will feel sad because it contains somethings money can't buy, and a lot of money. But hey, God is with us! He is with me all the time, he is in control. "Let his will be done, not mine, not yours but his."

I am here to blog about the weird feeling I felt. Did you know when I realise I lost my wallet. I just continued walking slowly and the strolling pace!!? LOL.... I don't know why but I was feeling peace then. sure I run up and down Pasir Ris park 3 times!! Wah, improve my fitness le lah, and I remember how the rhema boys all went to search for the lost wallet but to no avail. Hey, it is not about finding the wallet, but about the unity. To actually see them help to find it is really touching. It was something I might never be able to see had I not lost the wallet.. So I thank God no matter what has happen. I might have to live with a few difficulties for now but all praise to God!! I felt like a burden was lifted of my shoulders when I came to terms with the lost. I am not feeling upset that I lost my wallet, but thankful as it humbled me, taught be that "Naked I came, naked I would go". So no point crying over the lost but instead look towards building up treasures in heaven! I was humbled and thank God because God would oppose the proud. :D

And I think this is random, but I was thinking about X-Factor Camp. Remembering God's faithfulness. I actually prayed to god that he would build bonds in Rhema and that THERE WOULD BE UNITY!! I ASKED FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN TO BUILD UP THE UNITY IN RHEMA!! And guess wat!! He killed 2 birds with one stone. Imba right!! HAha...

And So I remember God's Faithfulness in the camp. X-Factor Camp how God cleared the sky and the testimonies people gave. I remember how Lefa talked about how unprepared PE was and my mum said that the right word to describe the camp was Emmanuel. And a lot more testimonies from different events on how God was with us. And how God was with me!! :D

And I bumped into two songs. Not catchy at all but they are worshipping God for his faithfulness, for who he is!! Indeed, EMMANUEL!!

And let us adore him for who he is, for what he has done... :D

Unfailing Love

2010-09-06T09:53:00.003+08:00

Woah.. I feels so cute.. Oh man. My brain still sleeping lah.. Alamak, go camping then never get to sleep. Sleep for 15 hours le not enough sio, I still tired.. Sigh, I need to force myself to study!! :( Ok... Remember last time, I did a post about God's love sop min blowing that I am unable to comprehend it?? I found a song that fits it, or rather fits it!! LOL.. By Chris Tomlin this time. I try be a Eugene.. LOL... Random, butamazingly, I choose to listen to Chris Tomlin instead today.

LOL.. This song is more of a response to God's unfailing love... :D

Alive in You

2010-09-02T23:30:00.001+08:00

Why this is our God got so many good song.. This one sounds sound good.. I like the rift.... LOL.. So upload lah.. :x Can we also play this song?? Aiyo, Play one set all from This is our God album can??

Where we belong

2010-09-02T23:00:00.003+08:00

Another song from Hillsong!! This is our God album!! There!! The album is great. Or in my opinion it is... Wakaka.... LOL..

As you watch this. Read ther lyrics!! Casting all else aside!! For the joy of our Lord JESUS CHRIST!! May he bless you, speak to you through this video. Lefa! Can we play this after my Os??

The Same Power

2010-09-02T22:31:00.005+08:00

Who knew shuff ur playlist and God speaks?? LOL.. Indeed God spoke to me even in random ways!! Isn't that great. Well, I was browsing youtube, and I came across this rather old song but impactful song. Indeed that same power that conquer the grave lives in me!! I am more than a conqueror!!

37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. - Romans 8:37!!

When asked which album to you is best for Hillsong. I would say "This is our God. Reason: There are impactful songs such as Healer, Stronger, With Everything, You are Here, You deserve, He is Lord. But the most touching song is With everything because of how God move even though the concert was already over. When the people kept praising and sing even after concert. I can watch them sing for hours. Seeing the wonders of our God. Woah!!

God's Love for me is so mind blowing!!

2010-08-29T21:54:00.003+08:00

Well, I was doing QT last night lah.. and will God spoke...

Hm.. It is rather mind blowing still to me. Because last night, I was redo-ing my NLK, and alos doing ODJ...

The most amazing part of it was that both talked about the same subject. I decided to do NLK and it was talking about the abundant he has promised. God did not say that there were no strings attach to the eternal life. But he said that abundant life is a life that is lived in LOVING obedience to him. Then there was a poem on how God sent his son to die for us. That love for us, that drove him to the cross. Then I was doing ODJ, and it was talking about rejoicing. Rejoicing that Jesus that died, and has risen!! And then I asked to hear his voice and 4 words formed in my head. "You are my son."

And well, it left me think how powerful is love. That he drove God to become man, and to die for such a wretch like me. How great is his love, something I am unable to comprehend!!! Is love really that powerful??

Today's worship, we say "How great is your love". So it really means something. I don't know why I am blogging this. But I am unable to comprehend such love, would you be able??

I can't imagine myself dying for somebody's sake. It is that kind of love. So strong, so powerful. I also blur!! And then just imagine you doing so much such for the person and then the person is not grateful, instead he/she just "orh" then heck care you. Imagine that pain you will feel. I think I like want to slap the person's face lah!! Imagine that pain God feels?? Yet he is still so patient. He is imba man. And I want to be able to comprehend love. To love to the extent that I would lay my life down.

And this is wat the bible says about love:

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

So do you have such love??

Passion Rekindle?

2010-08-22T00:22:00.003+08:00

Hm... Today, my thoughts are are jumbled up. Hm...

Well, today I went to D.I and what my eyes saw was that the shaking that is happening in D.I can really be seen. It not minor one that can be covered up but it is visible. Well, I saw that D.I has rather "shrink" as I can really see the drastic difference in attendance when Si'er was still here, and after he left. I am not saying the leader now are lousy, but the shaking is really affecting D.I...

And then I was thinking to myself, I see Rhema, we are suppose to be 10 strong but then week in week out, only a few are truly rooted. Then I think to myself, why is D.I suddenly a place that feels so dead?? Where is all the hyperness?? Where is the D.I I once knew?? I know that there are still many regular faces but where are the new souls?? Where is the passion that was burning so strongly in our hearts once?? Where is the compassion for the lost?? You can say, I feel burdened yet to nothing. Isn't that as good as not being burdened??

God has called as out to evangelise, to make disciples of all nations but we sometimes think that our needs are more the will of God and we don't not do it. Have you been guilty of it?? I know I am, I hope you admit it too, and start afresh!!

To the Christian who read this, ask yourself.

- Is the fire in my heart still burn for God??

- Do I have the compassion for the lost??

If you need your fire, your passion to be rekindle, lets ask God this day to help us!!

I remember when D.I said 100 by June. How many of us truly work towards that goal with all our heart, with your your minds, with all your strength?? Have we given our all for God, or are we still holding back something?? Did we truly believe it by faith, and did it turn into actions??!!! Because the bibles says,

But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."

Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.

You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless? Was not our ancestor Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. And the scripture was fulfilled that says, "Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,"and he was called God's friend. You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone.

In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead. - James 2: 18-26

So is your backed up by actions?? My heart was very burdened to see the way things look at D.I and even if I do leave, I do not want to leave D.I is such a state!! I want to see revival!! I want to see revival!! Lets us cry out to God!! Ask him to help us, to accomplish the great commission!! I want to see Rhema produce boys whose have mountain-moving faith!! I want to see revival in D.I and in Rhema!! To every Christian!! Let us work towards such a goal!! Lets us pray to God, because this can only happen if God is with us!! If not we will not go, unless God goes with us.

Come on, bros and sis!! Let Revival take place in D.I!!

God heals the wound, not time!

2010-08-19T22:17:00.007+08:00

A wound so deep,

A hurt so huge,

Your loss saddens his heart,

and tears start flowing down,

those that are the apples of his eye.

But no hurt is too deep,

no wound to huge,

that he can't mend,

He is healer,

but all he longs is for you...

For you...

for you to seek refuge in him,

for you to find strength in him,

for you to love once again,

for you to stand up again and worship him.

Oh man. this is random but I did a break from doing R-formula. I going siao le!! Oh man.. Make me study for an hour!! LOL... Don't ask me why the poem so random, maybe becoz I random. Idk??

Well, but this poems those reflects my thoughts. And what I know of him. I might not know all, I might be to lousy to comprehend his imba-ness, and glorious majesty but I know he is my strength, my healer and Saviour.

I think you all will again ask me why I write so emo poems. I am not. I am telling myself to embrace it with open hands. No more running, no more hiding le!! Time to let the wound be healed.

Ok, some brief information on the poem, but i doubt you see the link :D. I have learnt that the phrase, "time heals the wounds" is not true.

Some wounds might be too deep, too huge. Time only gives us a chance to forget it but if it is too big, it will reopen and you will feel that same pain. The tormenting feeling of pain and anguish.

Since time can't heal wounds, who can? Simple. GOD.

Well, 3 weeks have passed. I am still learning, I am sure the wounds are still not healed completely but are gradually healing. God is your healer, believe it or not, is a fact. You don't need to know what I am going through but the tormenting process is gradually lessening... But I want to learn what I have learnt. God is your healer, none else are like him. No one else can pull of this feat only he can do.

P.S I wrote the poem hor. After 4 years, I finally wrote another one.. So if it is lousy, dont blame me :x

Chinese O'level Results!!

2010-08-18T23:05:00.010+08:00

Woah!! Today, I just got back my results for my O'levels!! and guess what I just passed!! Woohoo!!

After 10 years, since pri2 except for PSLE, I have always been failing chinese and it has been the most depressing subject that I might have ever taken. Failing for 10 years is not motivating, right!!??

Going into the hall gave me butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous, afraid yet peace filled my heart despite the uncertainties that were surrounding me. Isn't that great??!! I asked God in China, to help me pass my Chinese O'level Oral. I also tried going on a fast, but it did not materialised. Yet God has been faithful, with no strings attached, he passed me!!

God has shown me that he will always hear our prayers. Indeed, just like my previous post. Faith does miracles!! And this post is evident to my previous post!! I admit that I was doubtful at times, but who would not be if you have never experienced the adrenaline rushing through your body because you never passed your MT exam before?? I prayed not powerful, full of faith prayers, but prayers that requested for God divine intervention. I prayed soft prayers, asking God to help me. Because I knew he was always in control no matter where or what has happen. Forever, he reigns!! Forever and ever... Well. How faithful are you God??

Are you not?? Did you not?? And have you not?? My soft whispers were cries for help. My heart longed for your intervention. And when it looked like disaster was about to strike. You appeared, and rescued me. How faithful are you??

Well... I got it back!! Disaster never struck!! I passed!! C6!! Woohoo.. I smsed a lot of people!! My parents, my tution teacher!! Hong Xia, and a lot lah.... But Should I not have thank God first?? God longs to hear us. It was God who first helped me!! It was him, yet it feels like I abandoned him after he helped me!! He longs to her his child speak to him. It was the reason for our existence. Yet I pushed him aside. I did not thank him first!! He was not the forst person I talked too... and I feel bad...

Therefore...

"God. I thank you for your faithfulness. I thank you that you are forever in control and that you heard and answered my prayers. I pray for your forgiveness to fall upon me. I am sorry that I kind of pushed you aside. I am sorry. Help me to think of you. To put you first, before all else. Help me.. I pray.."

Have you been through what I am feeling, have you been guilty of such acts?? Ask God for forgiveness and change!! :D Be blessed!!

What can Faith Do?

2010-08-17T20:46:00.005+08:00

What has God said about faith as small as a mustard seed?

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20

And i found this on Youtube, What can Faith do? PE Band, lets have a sleepover after Os then we watch fireproof together, then cry together. Ok maybe it would just me..

I want to watch Fireproof!!

2010-08-16T20:33:00.001+08:00

Doing maths is depressing so I decided to browse through Facebook, then I came across this link that my mum posted... Interesting song... Hm.. So I went to listen to it, then I found Fireproof, the movie again!! Oh man, I think I must watch Fireproof because the song, "While I am Waiting" is also from that movie!! So I want watch Fireproof.

The one that I found in youtube after browsing around after clicking her link:

This the one she posted:

Are you first??

2010-08-15T23:57:00.003+08:00

LOL.. Hi people (wif the Hong Kong ascent, blame Io Tong lah) :D

Today is Sunday and it has been pretty eventful. I when to 2 libraries (Just wait, to see the reason why I want to whack Yan Hong), Lefa, Joshua, You Fu came to house to play real and virtual soccer. We kind of got own by people stronger than us. I know them, the batch of my primary sch. People whom I had played before, but it has been a long time. They were definitely a class above most of us. Maybe better or on par with me.. but I never come compare because You fu kind of attacked his teammate, causing him to limp and feel pain at his appendix. To make things worse, he hit it twice!! Ouch!! I pity MYSELF LAH!! I also manage to pwn Yan Hong in PES 2010. Yan Hong, go train lah!! Hehe.. Pretty interesting day, and in addition to the fun, there was a A-Maths test the following day, and if peple came to my house. I confirm can't study lah!! Diaoz.. I like studied 30 mins.. Chiongster sia!! Hope can pass happy le.

Well... The reason why I wanted to whac Yan Hong is because he asked me on saturaday if I wanted to go library study, then he told me Jurong Regional Library (which is Jurong East one).. So I went there at 2, and waited for him. I waited 30 mins then decided told want wait. Go in find Endang and CX. SO I go 3rd floor, walk around 3 times. Then I said I give up, he come find me. Then I receive a call... "Hello, I think you in wrong library. Jurong Point one leh (Which is JURONG WEST lah) Wat the bleahly bleah!! In doing so, I wasted one hour. Which spoiled my entire schedule. I was supposed to return PSP to my mum (The CCK one, or non-biological one) but then Lefa, Joshua, and You Fu at my house le. Like waiting for the arrival of the Prince or something.. I was like Wat the bleah again!

So due to Yan Hong brilliant navigating skills. Or brilliant locations!! I wasted one hour.. I feel like whacking him, unfortunately, I am slow to anger. Sigh.. I won't in the end. LOL.. Well... The pain that You Fu inflicted on me painful that is kind of stop me from being able to run. And when I can't run I can't play. I kind of told you my strength in soccer le.. But I still love you, bro!! Haha... LOL.. But that is not my focus today, or this post...

Well.. Before it ws two o'clock, I followed the CCK/Yew Tee gang. not gang lah.. Only Pearl and Justin... Then I was talking and I forgot what I said le... then the interesting part has yet to come. I stopped at CCK, typical me sio, then I was telling my mum about my english oral or my prob with the word "People". LOL.. But more funny was at the end of the escalator. My mum told me this, "I give you advice when net time you get gf. She must be first priority, if not you will make her cry." Then I was like stunned lah, why so random??

Errrr.... Oooook? I tio stun le but then it helped me ask myself. If I next time got gf then she must be first priority. A bit GG ah, coz I know my style. No responsibility de, imagine my gf cry like wat the bleah.. lol.. But I doubt I will get one. Oh man that was random too!!.. Then you know usually, in CIA, I was taught God is first priority and will always be. So I asked since you would love your future gf very much, God is your first love. "Do you keep him as first priority? Do you love him more thn your GF or ur future one? Will you?? Even if your friend ask you go here there and everywhere but God wants you to be at church, do you still obey God?? Is God always first?? "

So this is my question to you, "Has God been your first priority in life?" GF or no GF, I am sure you understand what I am trying to bring across... Be bless then :D

P.S Mum says I misinterpreted the advice. And of course I did. I am still too young to comprehend it. Wakaka ( 8 years old mentally, imba sio)... But it is not the advice she gave you take away from the post. It is whether you are going to or have always place God first in your live. I am sure you got sometimes never de, so it is to help you reflect. Something like ODJ. But this one is done by me.. :x